n E exponentiation ezine [3.0] ISSN 1555-693X http://www.anus.com/zine This is War When we look at our situation in the world as individuals, we must recognize that we are dependent upon the world around us. If our atmosphere goes away, or war comes to the land, we cannot escape it by changing the channel. Reality is here and will affect our future as well as our feelings toward how well our lives are spent. Knowing that we die, we wish meaning from life, but we would want it otherwise, as the alternative is emotional entropy a.k.a. boredom. The heroic versus the machine Nature is a large machine, if viewed in terms of function: sunlight hits plants, plants feed animals, animal droppings feed plants, and through natural selection better animals and plants emerge, culminating in sentient organisms. With sentience, we have the ability to choose our future: it is a dimension added to natural selection. If we choose badly, it will take many years for the truth to be known but the consequences will be felt. We live in a world where most people not only do not think but believe themselves to be powerless. If they knew what lurked unnoticed inside of them, the inner potential to be heroes or vagrants, they would waver with a sense of vertigo: each decision is a potential castle built or leap off a precipice. They see modern society as something that has not only happened to them but will never change. If this magazine accomplishes anything, it is to remind them that they have _choice_ and can wield that. Nature's machine has an ultimate goal, namely itself; it seeks to make itself better constantly so it can produce new dimensions of existence such as consciousness (choice). In contrast, the machine of modern society is both a mindset and a reality based on the idea of material product. Our goal is not to rise, in a sense of our personal abilities or spiritual growth, but to produce material objects and wealth and thus to enjoy comfort -- the pursuit of pleasure. There is no greater pleasure however than rising above the trivial to find the transcendent, those moments of peace in which we see that not only is life worth living but that we enjoy it for its struggle, the overcoming of doubt and material sensation in order to achieve greater things. Giving birth is painful, and children die, but to raise children is a quest that approaches the religious in its ability to deny the risks and aim for a goal: that each generation be better stronger brighter more noble than the past. Our quest is not to rage against the machine, but to replace it. We do this by making ourselves better via discipline and the kind of hope that is grounded in what our minds and hands can do. We do this because we believe in life. Life is not merely function and comfort, but a process of putting our failures behind us and becoming stronger in infinite ways. To a writer, it is describe reality more fully and to inspire others; to a musician, it is to make music that both transports us from our world and makes us see it with new eyes that can perceive the potential for greater things in every moment. We are not talking about objects and sensations here, but _significance_. A moment of great personal victory -- climbing a mountain, writing an album, triumph in battle -- involves discomfort and suffering and loss, but the significance of having achieved that victory outweighs all else. Modern society does not recognize this viewpoint. It is a machine that takes raw materials and makes products that people want to buy. When we say we are at war, we are fighting against that mindset and its eventual outcome, which will be the consumption of all earth and human souls by the machine. Moderndoom Why would anyone object to this society? We have better medicine, more comfortable homes, cheaper food. Yet as anyone who has goofed off in class while the teacher was absent knows, there are eventual consequences. We can put them off but they will happen nonetheless. As our natural land disappears, our climate changes and species vanish; the earth can no longer renew itself as it once did. And suddenly we're surrounded by people, most of whom we would not care to know -- faceless drones, prone to opportunism either behind a desk or with a weapon, driven only by their desire for comfort and pleasure. Steadily the progress of modernity has revealed itself. But more than any physical destruction is the loss of our souls, what both makes us human and makes us inclined to rise above human failings to achieve the great works of art and action that mark our history. We no longer believe in life as a pursuit of learning and accomplishment; it is rote task, making money and having a "life" in which all goals are set by others and there is no chance for the finer things such as transcendence. In becoming modern, we have traded material discomfort for spiritual discomfort, in that we are no longer sure our lives as _experience_ are a fair trade for inevitable death. What is great in being promoted, or in starting our own business in a model that's well known? No frontiers; no space left to conquer; only places in the machine. This dulls our spirit and makes us see the entire world as material, and thus love becomes sex, cuisine becomes large portions, satisfaction becomes comfort and wide-screen TV, religion becomes having the "right" opinions. When we make war, we make war against this mentality. Heroism To go into battle is to be ready to die not for one's own comfort but for an ideal. Whether it is the survival of a tribe, or the establishment of a political or philosophical position, it is a willing sacrifice: to say "I believe in life enough that if my life is lost it is a fair trade." There are many ways to describe what we believe (traditionalism, existentialism, nihilism, idealism) but ultimately it is this process of putting ideas before comfort. We can design a better reality. We can apply design to ourselves and make ourselves better as people. This is a creed that applies in every time period because it is inherent to the nature of being a thinking being. We call it heroism. The goal of this magazine is not to amuse you or to pass the time, but to inspire you to see that in yourself the possibility of this heroism is dormant, much as even in our world of endless concrete and plastic there is the potential for something better. There is no material proof for this. Only you can motivate yourself to make what does not now exist, but can be had for the price of some suffering and loss. And since with death all is lost at any rate, why do you hesitate? This is war -- together we raise our hands to better ourselves and our world. CONTENTS I. News II. Culture III. Features IV. Self-Sufficiency V. Literature ------- News ------- Mall Escalator Malfunctions; Sixty Perish June 21st, 2006 CROSS CITY, FL – Sixty citizens perished and countless others were injured in a tragic escalator accident at the Cross City Mall on the morning of Monday June 19th. "This is the worst tragedy our city has ever seen,"remarked Cross City city councilor Roy Ingram. On Monday morning a two-story escalator inside the Cross City Mall grinded to an unexpected halt. Customers aboard the escalator, carrying heavy shopping bags which made climbing stairs unreasonable, stood and looked around at each other in confusion. The escalator then started with a jerk, and riders with loose shoe-strings were caught in the device, kicking and screaming in peril as their feet were ground up through the accelerated machine. The jolt sent other consumers flying, plummeting to their deaths. Obese shoppers with 0% trans-fat lite veggie burgers wrapped in McDonald's bags rolled and crushed other riders, including six members of the morning division of the elite "Senior Citizen Mall Power Walking Team" (SCMPWT). Cross City resident Janie Smits recalls the incident, "I was eating my typical Monday morning energy booster of five scoops of Häagen-Dazs double chocolate fudge ice cream in the food court when I suddenly heard a loud banging noise followed by a lot of people cursing, then there was a loud grinding and the most horrible screams I’ve ever heard in my life."Smits continued, "it was horrible, there was blood being sprayed everywhere, and what was worse, some of it got all over my ice cream, but I guess ce le vie cause I was able to lick around most of it." The incident has caused an outrage among human rights activists of the United Homosexual Church of Christian Migrant Non-denominationalists. Spokesperson for the group, Aaron Tite, gave the following comment, "Our citizens should not have to go through the shopping mall in mortal terror. We can’t allow this travesty to occur a second time. It’s immoral and inhumane what has happened here and we at the Homosexual Church see the mall management as a group of cold-blooded killers for not inspecting their escalators closely enough.” Cross City city council called an emergency meeting in order to deal with the problem of mall escalators. One of the proposed solutions is to raise a bill that will ban all escalators in Cross City. Other members of the city council vehemently opposed the idea, claiming that citizens should not be forced to burden themselves by walking up two flights of stairs with heavy shopping bags. The custodial engineers of the Cross City Mall have looked directly into the escalator's problem and have implemented a temporary remedy involving bubble gum and twist ties. "If I finished the job now," says subordinate custodial mechanic Raum Mohammed, "I would have nothing to do tomorrow, and I'd be out of a job--they'd fire me. I have kids to feed. Five of them! I have to make money somehow. Besides we placed a little two by two sign about three feet away from the escalator with a danger warning painted on it, that should be good enough for now." The escalator is currently in operation. Consumers oblivious to the dangers of such devices are still riding them nation wide. -=- Nation’s Frats Experience "Genital Leprosy"Epidemic June 20th, 2006 HARTFORD,CT (UCONN) - Scientists have determined that an extremely virulent strain of gonorrhea is responsible for the outbreak of what has been dubbed "Genital Leprosy"among the nation’s college fraternities. The bacteria Neisseria gonorrhoeae is believed by experts to have altered its genetic character. Bacteriologist Harvey Whitfield claims this mutation is "due to exposure to high levels of known mutagens present in cheap beer such as Bulldog Light."Whitfield went on to say, "when the cheap beer is consumed in large quantities by male revelers carrying the infectious agent, a breeding ground is created for this new strain, which in turn is passed on to girlfriends, girlfriends-on-the-side, intoxicated party chicks who think they’re bisexual, and other frat brothers ‘on the down low.’” Initial symptoms include feelings of fatigue, penis complexes, and a general lack of motivation, which leads to a mental, emotional and spiritual numbness that keeps sufferers from ever doing something about their self-inflicted epidemic. Symptoms soon progress to swelling and numbing of the genitals, and finally gradual sloughing off of tissue. "Frat brothers engage in a self-medicating/denial behavior involving more Bulldog Light and grooving to 50 Cent on their trash and bodily fluid-caked dance floors,"notes Whitfield. Current studies show this practice does not have any healing effects. Some experts believe such a response by carriers of the genital ailment makes the disease worse. Those at risk are not letting their lives be run by fear. Despite there being no current treatment, students are taking it in stride, and continuing to have sex for status while getting drunk on cheap alcohol. Says Krystal, a sophomore at Dartmouth College and girlfriend of an Omega Chi Pi member, "I won’t let this disease stop me from dating the only real men around here. If I had to stop going to the frats, who else would I hook up with? Those art fags? My boyfriend is in a frat, which will help him become CEO of Earth Pavers Inc. so he can make lots of money to spend on me.” Currently 65% of college frat boys are confirmed as being carriers of the disease. Estimates are that 85% of fraternity males will have the disease by the end of the year should the standard frat party behavior continue. ---------- Culture ---------- Music: Aphex Twin-"Selected Ambient Works 1985-1992. Vol. 1"(2002 Pias America) On volume one, it’s a mixed bag between uplifting minimalist ambient techno and more rhythmically oriented club fodder. Songs here are clearly designed to meet pop expectations of electronic music, with incessant 4/4 beats, heavy repetitive bass lines, and airy synth patches now familiar to the genre all rendered in spacious clear production values. In other words, one might be inclined based on this description alone to totally dismiss this album as knob-twiddling tripe. Not so. While some tracks do verge toward populist, style-over-substance tendencies, the better ones here show micronarratives of thematic shift within the kind of consistent sonic patterning characteristic of ambient music. Most of these pieces consist of a pair of dominant melodic themes: one anchoring rhythmic structure and the other a tangentially developing phrasal pattern floating into aural space to carry the initial motion to its final conclusion. Minute details flush out the rest: pauses and subtle manipulations of timbre to provide the contrasts necessary to keep the listener’s interest. Like the best ambient, it’s about using details and subtly developing thematic counterpoints to give more depth and complexity within consistent mood as if going from viewing a two dimensional picture of a scene to actually being immersed in it. Highlights: Tracks 1-3, 9. Aphex Twin-"1994 Selected Ambient Works Vol.2"(1994 Sire/London/Rhino) It isn’t until this second showcasing that we see more consistency in quality along with some degree of aesthetic advancement from simple ambient techno. The bass-heavy techno rhythm tracks have largely been replaced with more subtle percussion, or often, a total lack of it in order to emphasis the newfound sense of negative space that brings us another dimension of musical expression. Overall this is a more contemplative affair, featuring fluid melodic soundscapes of digital yet warm tones that gently ease their way into the listener’s framework of perception. While still minimalist, this release employs somewhat more complexity in detail of layering. Prominent musical devices, as heard on tracks like to achieve this are delay and volume swells allowing fragments of minor key melody to overlap and momentarily express their significance in new ways while driving bass counterpoints may enter to resolve direction of mood under these shimmering textures of sound. The mood of the album tends to be darker in comparison to the former yet there is still a variety to be heard, perhaps to a greater extent. Songs like Cliffs and this reviewers favorite, Z Twig are uplifting singular moments of musical ideas enwrapping each other in baths of echo. Other tracks like Hexagon and Weathered Stone weave gentle melodic phrasing with brainy bass riffs as if contrasting humanity’s tendency toward the earthbound with their desire to aspire toward the higher yet less gratifyingly tangible. In fact this could be the common theme that unites all of Aphex Twin’s best ambient works providing the conceptual ground for their composition and elevation above that which is merely wall paper being passed off as ambient. Highlights: 1,3,5,7 of CD 1 and 1,5,6,7,8 of CD 2. - No Fun -=- Ashtorath - "Darkstorm Entwined" (2002 Independent) Unheard of and celebrated only by underground dark ambient fans, Ashtorath is a unique ambient project coming out of Canada. While most ambient artists, at the time this album was recorded, used synthesizers and various technical editing to achieve an ambient atmosphere, Ashtorath focused on physical instrumentation and thereby actively engaged with the music itself to form a coherent listening experience. With delicate and noble emotion, Ashtorath set out to form a concept of classical music meeting metal. Ethereal and magical is the atmosphere found in these dark and romantic pieces that explore the romanticist side of life. Hanging ambient key tones flow between high and low points, switching from far away to close distance, serving as leading melodies to inflict an emotional mood upon its own basic structure. The rasping sound of a nail shaking a guitar string with ease fill the sometimes wondrous void, as a communicator of magical worlds and immersive myths and legends. Because this is what Ashtorath is a master at; creating magical moods and the ability to set the listener into a distant world where time is an illusion and romanticism is reality. The beauty stems not only from the harmonies between ambient and metal but also from the spirit of classical music that arises within each piece. The collaboration between the distant, fading sounds of guitar strings, blowing wind and soft church bells define each moment as special and unique, drenched in darkness. If one could use the word "art", one would apply it to "Darkstorm Entwined", and that rightly so. The influences from classical music is at most times benevolent and real, and gives the music a clear vision of what it tries to present. Lively but ambiguous, this music works at both an emotional and philosophical level; there are no restrictions regarding the expression of the music itself, only endless possibilities. The new guitar techniques found on "Darkstorm Entwined" were, at the time of the creation of this album, new and inspiring for numerous underground ambient and metal projects to come. As felt and heard when the finger rides on a string after a note within a larger melody is being played, these techniques are used to the advantage of the artist and turned into melodies themselves, voices of birds from afar. The sound of icicles meeting, thunderstorms roaring and strings played upon by a creature unhuman, unknown, are but few of the ways in which Ashtorath keeps the overall mood going. This gothic monument is as ethereal as it is enchanting and moving; there is no lack of emotion and dedication to art in this album. Competent, but not the least, true to itself and its creation, the words trying to express the poetry found within each statement are mere attempts to reach the height of abstraction felt and lived by the music and creator. When day turns to night and time passes, there will be nothing left but the echoes of a dimension beyond this one, upholding experiences that transcend physical reality. Breathtaking. - Alexis -=- Cocteau Twins – "Garlands" (1982 4AD Records) An adventure into the darker realms of ethereal music, this 1982 release from Cocteau Twins blends together elements of post-punk, punk and new wave to create endearing atmospheric music with a heavy Gothic sensibility. The music on Garlands is more straightforward and cut from the mold of the early post-punk scene than are later Cocteau Twins releases. Its atmosphere is less dreamy than future albums and is instead darker and grittier, however elements of this bands trademark sound can be found tucked away in nooks and crannies of this release. The bass guitar is the dominant instrument on this album, it shifts tones in the Gothic rock tradition while a guitar that makes full use of arpeggios and pedal effects layers ambient and ethereal atmospheres behind it. Simple and metrical drumbeats add backbone to the swift and haunting guitar melodies, but they also have a tendency to degenerate into simplistic dance beats that cover up the beauty of the harmonic sections. This is a minor gripe, as it does not do enough to detract from the beauty of the music as a whole. Of important note on Garlands is the wonderful vocal performance presented by Liz Fraser. Fraser’s vocals are playful and unique and add dreamy qualities to the guitar created atmospheres. As always Fraser’s vocals are one of the strongest aspects of Cocteau Twins’ music. There are not many vocalists in the world that have quite the dynamic range and beauty of her voice and her presentation is one of the most unique in all of music; her vocals are less about making lyrics audible and are more about creating unique sounds and sublime verbal textures. While Liz’s performances are always unique, her presentation on Garlands, though not her best, is one of a kind as she adds many laughs and giggles into the music that heighten its otherworldly qualities. While a great album in many ways, Garlands exemplifies a young band still finding its own voice. Musicianship here is more than competent, but the relationship between the instruments is not as integrated and harmonious as later Cocteau Twins albums, this is in part what causes this album to be less dreamy. The repetition of harmonies, melodies and rhythms can be this bands strong point as these musical elements lend themselves to creating a transcendental atmosphere but they can also be a weak point, as they can grow monotonous if not integrated properly. For example the repetitive drum section on Garlands has a tendency to undermine the harmonics. It occasionally becomes too pronounced and drowns out the ambient and melodic sections. Luckily on future albums they improved and downplayed the role of the drum machine. Even though this album has a few shortcomings in its structure and identity, it still lucidly expresses a band with a vision to create inspiring and atmospheric music. With Garlands, Cocteau Twins have successfully crafted a brooding and ethereal album that transports the mind to a mysterious realm. This is a top-notch album in the post-punk/gothic tradition and it is highly recommended. The music found here should appeal to fans of other 4AD bands such as Dead Can Dance and Bauhaus. - phantasm -=- Books: "Going Postal: Rage, Murder and Rebellion: From Reagan’s Workplaces to Clinton’s Columbine and Beyond" by. Mark Ames. 284 pages. Soft Skull Press (2005) It’s been one year since Jeff Weise, the friendless, husky teenager with a broad chin characteristic of his Chippewa heritage, murdered ten people, including his grandfather on the Red Lake, Minnesota reservation and high school in what remains the largest American teen-rage murder since Columbine. Last April, as the media storm lingered over the motives (video games) and interests (Goth music) of the sixteen year old shooter, Mark Ames, writing in New York Press, offered a view that was apparently quite ludicrous to his journalistic peers: "Jeff Weise is the offspring of an exterminated nation whose people suffer from rates of alcoholism, poverty and early death usually found in African countries. His father committed suicide; his alcoholic mother regularly beat him until she crashed her car and wound up a vegetable. It is easy to imagine that Weise connected his personal misery to the larger misery of his people...In that sense, Jeff Weise looks more like an insurgent than a simple psychopath."* Ames, dismissing the media’s generalization of a deranged "Nazi”, was only hinting at the widespread culture of bullying and intimidation assumed by America’s educational and corporate institutions. His new book, "Going Postal"offers a detailed analysis of the psychology, background and future implications of this largely stateside, middle-class phenomenon. Key to his theory is debunking the general belief that rage-killers, like serial killers, can be profiled. Indeed, Weise, a poor Indian from the reserve is not the only subject to deviate from the common illustrations of white male anomie. Since it’s impossible to lock onto a fixed criteria within the lives of these killers, common external factors must be the prime motivation. His argument is twofold; by attributing the contemporary environment of the workplace and high-school, a shift from paternal management toward an intentional climate of fear, to the economic practices of the Reagan presidency – cemented during Clinton’s term of globalization, Ames contextualizes the dispiriting environments and cut-throat ideals that pervade each generation since. For most Americans, work exists as a routine, not a vocation of skill. With its atmosphere of petty dictators, snitches, gossip-hags, cursed fluorescent lighting and forced cheerfulness implicit in customer service, employees trudge through their routine day after day, amongst tiers of both the sexless and sexually frustrated. These conditions are concurrent to all office-based jobs, increasing with the scale of the company. It’s a real-world sentence involving what Evola called an "artificial increase"of human needs.** For those young enough, lucky enough or willing to take a risk, it may only last a decade before they’re able to accumulate some savings and move on to something better. Most won’t, no matter the indignity. It’s this idea that consumes the second half of Ames argument, which draws comparisons between the contemporary employee and lowly slaves, touching on both the Romans and Arabs, but primarily concerned with America’s early history. In the colonies slave rebellions were a rare occurrence. The reason? While those uprisings that did occur were squashed almost instantly, most did not want to leave their masters at all; contrary to the triumphant pictorials of slaves in modern education (read: television). But it was not so much fear of the military or the White Man’s law which prevented escape; it was, as Ames reasons quoting Frederick Douglas, a fear of the unknown. There are many convenient traps offered by America’s quotidian model. For one, it fills an otherwise hapless existence with familiarity and responsibility. The same familiarity and defined space that helped keep slaves in tow, leading relatively untroubled lives so long as they conformed. Indeed, most Americans love work! It’s built into our National ideal, which in the last few decades has taken on grotesque dimensions. As Ames notes "Entertainment is no longer about joy or escape. It’s about reliving life at the office, even if you’ve just left the office fifteen minutes ago."But for all this dreary life of schlepping and sorting and keying in, it used to be more tolerable; at least American’s were well compensated for it, receiving benefits and earned vacation time. Even for the ones privileged enough to receive either of these more humane accommodations today, many are afraid to take the advantage; wouldn’t want to look like you’re falling behind. Thus, when this rigid, consuming life of eat, sleep, laugh, shit work is disrupted, often in degrading shows of pseudo-strength and corporate apathy, the consequences can be legion. Is this mere rhetoric and hyperbole? Ingest these gems from former Intel CEO Andy Grove and the Wall Street Journal and then think when they were applicable to your life. (Although if you’re European, with an average vacation time of six to seven weeks compared to American’s ten to fourteen days off, it might be tough). "The most important role of managers is to create an environment in which people are passionately dedicated to winning in the marketplace. Fear plays a major role in creating such passion. Fear of competition, fear of bankruptcy, fear of being wrong and fear of losing can all be powerful motivators.” "The workplace is never free of fear – and it shouldn’t be. Indeed, fear can be a powerful management tool." This sentiment has become manifest throughout decades in literal monsters like Andy Dunlap and sneering assholes like Neal Patterson down to the callous pit-bosses in Oklahoma, San Diego and Kentucky. And Columbine; for what are today’s schools but farming systems for the next crop of drones? Shifting focus from education to selective discipline, aggravated disaster’s like high-school were up until a few years ago, a place where bullying was just a fact of life -- preparation for the business world. Always concerned with teaching how not to think, one of the most curious themes explored by Ames is the media’s convergence upon racism as a motivation for teenage killers, often in place of the more logical activators, such as humiliation and alternative-less defeat. Says Ames, "It is as if the adult world needs to find racist motives in the school shooters and plotters in order to bracket them as exceptionally ‘evil’, rather than, as is usually the case, typical”. As The Misfit’s used to sing, "Blame it all on Nazi Youth!” *http://www.nypress.com/18/14/news&columns/markames.cfm ** "The turning point was the advent of a new life that...adopted as it’s highest ideal an artificial increase and multiplication of human needs and the necessary means to satisfy them, in total disregard for the growing slavery this would inexorably constitute for the individual and collective whole."Men Among the Ruins pg 173. - Smog -=- Polar Shift by Clive Cussler and Paul Kemprecos (2005, Penguin, New York) Writers of mainstream books know that they are essentially making written television, but a handful have decided to eschew the Dan Brown route -- making the mundane seem profound -- and try its inverse, or encoding the profound into mundane form. Look at the surface of a Michael Crichton or Clive Cussler novel, and you see people shooting machine guns out of helicopters and chasing dinosaurs; look inside, and you will see a subtle discussion of the philosophical and political demographics of our time. It is not like Schopenhauer, which is written about the individual; it is about the ideas individuals share that thus change our world by their currency in assumption. "Polar Shift," like most of these books, combines far-out science with very real world conclusions, and in that alone are a warning for the Few Who Still Think, but as this plot unfolds, it gains sinister implications that warn us about some of our illusory thinking and our tendency to accept that people's stated motivations are what actually drive them. Without giving away too much of the plot, this book is about the technology for shifting magnetic poles of the earth developed by a Hungarian scientist, and how years after his death, a tussle erupts between corporate interests and counter-Elite revolutionaries -- who have some problems with ideological clarity that lead them closer to the state of their enemies than their actual friends. The action is fast-paced; the words are simple; the emotions very basic and as always, there's a beautiful chick somewhere who in a nod to women's rights is also a brilliant scientist. It doesn't take a magnifying glass to see through the formula, but as a great writer said, a book is not the techniques it uses by the ideas it provokes. - vijay prozak -=- Cinema: Repo Man (dir. Alex Cox 1984) The culmination of postmodern thought is a kind of paranoia that is both figurative and literal: we cannot trust social institutions, or even universal abstracts like "truth" and "good," because they can be manipulated; part II is that, having said that, we have to assume most of our society is not only indulging itself in fantasy but, because deluded, is actually opposed to truth... Repo Man is a movie that makes good on this principle by showing us the empty path of growing up suburban in the 1980s. There is the easy life -- "normal people" as defined by Bud, the anachronistically witty repossessor -- represented by Otto's family, who are living out a _Brave New World_ satiation by drugs, religion, sex and wealth while important decisions are offhand, unnoticed and denied. In contrast to normalcy, which we see is as empty as eating two Big Macs instead of a single (1) quality steak, is the life of the underworld: punkers committing senselessly graceful crime, kids gathering for secret parties at abandoned industrial locations, repo men trying to at least fool themselves into a modern chivalric code. Otto is defining himself by the path he takes through this mess, and his ultimate guiding light becomes a sense of truth "in the Real" as he rejects the sordid amusements, passive untruths, and failing paths of others. Almost every character in this movie comes to self-destruction as a result of losing sight of the pursuit of Realism: Bud shot down as he pursues money, Duke dying in a holdup, Archie fried on a dare, J. Frank Parnell destroyed by the radiation he considered a friend, Leila never gets to examine the aliens, Kevin becoming a pointless toadie to Mr. Humphries. Like most postmodern works, this movie is a subtle assimilation of 18th-century Romantic ideals into a modern sense of duality brought about by the difference between reality as it is described, especially by bureaucratic institutions, and reality as it exists... the indefinable, unbureaucratic _now_. Characters are as much icon as human being, and re-appear whenever their particular traits and failings need airing. Their names are ridiculous, from the customer "Arthur Pakman" (Pac-Man defining the arrival of video games, and soon computers, as trend in the 1980s) to the repo men named after different beers (Lite, Bud, Oly, Miller). Characters and events also satirize characters and events as portrayed by movies: Lite, the macho man African-American male; Leila, the classic insane but passionate movie woman; Marlene, parody of women on shows like "A-Team" who were tough and carried guns but had few ideas. Other incidental parodies include the skewering of generic products, televangelism, new age religions, Hispanic culture, wealth, the emptiness of Anglo suburbs, the astounding ugliness of modern cities. Although it seems an unlikely source, this movie melds macabre humor and post-counterculture insight into a single clear voice, at a time when the world needed such a thing (and coincidentally, a time when the last postmodern works of any quality were written). With the mathematical-scientific metaphor of most postmodern movies, it summarizes how we have gone wrong ("Linear and inverse vectors merge in zero" -- one way of saying if you simplify life into a single variable like money or power, you bring it closer to death through repetition) while making us grin. In theory, it was about nuclear war -- as shown through the duality of harmful/helpful radiation, and aliens existing/being a hoax -- but it ended up being a critique not of an event or tendency but the underlying emptiness of our social and political outlook. Now that we once again have a president who talks fanatically about God while bandying weapons about, it's not a terrible time to view this snapshot of the 1980s that is dramatically relevant today. -vijay prozak -=- Dawn of the Dead (dir. George Romero 1978): "When there’s no more room in hell, the dead will walk the earth” These haunting opening lines to George A. Romero’s epic horror film Dawn of the Dead foretell both the world of the film and the substance of our modern culture. Dawn marks the second film in Romeo’s "dead trilogy"and it is the most ambitious and competent of the three. Dawn of the Dead begins in a disgruntled newsroom full of hectic chatter and anarchistic fray as scientists bicker on the television over what is causing the plight of zombies to raid their beloved society. The cities in Dawn of the Dead are degenerating into hellish prisons and wastelands full of squabbling, degenerate humans and waves of the undead. The film follows two policemen and two media employees as they flee the cities in a helicopter in order to find a safe haven away from the growing chaos and ever increasing legions of the undead. Their trip takes them to an abandoned mall where they decided to take haven and create a society for themselves. Inside the mall mindless zombies wander aimlessly through the shops and along escalators as cheese-ridden mall music blares over the loudspeakers. While the mindless automatons we see in Dawn of the Dead are flesh eating zombies they are virtually indistinguishable from the living automatons that wander the malls daily. In this regard Dawn of the Dead removes the veil of western consumerism and exposes its hollow insides. The protagonists of the film eventually take on the consumerist characteristics of the mall culture and begin to revel in the material goods of the mall. They essentially become the mindless themselves in the process. The filmmaker pulls no punches in making this point known. He has his smiling protagonists run wide-eyed through open stores full of useless junk as if they are kids in a candy shop. The protagonists attempt to create a society for themselves out of all the goodies they have accumulated in the mall while the world outside continues to tear itself apart. Skillfully the film slows down the horror and terror in these sections and allows us to dwell in this new society along with the protagonists. We, like them, begin to forget about the dark underbelly lying just outside. The reality remains elusive to them as they indulge in mall junk. Eventually their mall wonder world comes crashing down as the terror on the outside finally manages to leak in. At that point the film resumes the terror in full and implies that as we grow fat on indulgence in the west this same end waits to leak in and finish us off - the illusion is only waiting to be striped away. Although the film at times makes its critique of consumerist western culture from a manipulatively liberal perspective and loses the subtlety of quality satire in favor of indulging in irony, it should by no means deter from the power of the main point of the film. When the manipulative aspects of the film are peeled away the value of the message shines though and stands as a resolute attack on the lost and materialistic culture we live in today. Dawn of the Dead is a rich allegory about modern consumerist culture and the degenerate and passive lifestyles most westerners joyfully engage in daily while remaining unaware of the doom waiting for them just around the corner. By utilizing the horror medium and turning zombies into a symbol for mindless consumerism, Dawn of the Dead manages to break down the illusionary walls of our modern society to expose the hell and emptiness that roams within. - phantasm -=- Food: Sourdough Bread Bread Basics Leavened bread is known to have been baked perhaps as early as 4000 years ago, by the ancient Egyptians. It’s more basic counterpart, unleavened bread, stretches back far further, beyond history. It is not known how the Egyptians discovered methods of rising their bread, but we know they were also brewers, and the use of yeast could have easily been transferred to breads, either deliberately or accidentally. Bread has been a dietary staple across innumerable cultures ever since, being a lasting, portable and (until fairly recently) healthy food type. When the microscope was developed in the nineteenth century the leavening agent, a single celled fungi named yeast, was discovered and soon began to be produced commercially. With economic pressures, commercial yeasts were bred for speed, stability and lack of strong flavor. Also, another bacteria, lactobacillus, which lives in symbiosis with yeast, was not included in commercial developments of yeast as it was technically unnecessary, despite being present in all prior leavened breads. Combined with ever more refined flours, and the addition of all sorts of fats, oils and sugars, bread continually progressed (or regressed) toward the bland, white, sweet enclosure for sandwiches for know today, which coincidentally happens to be edible. This cheap impostor foodstuff has made baking at home redundant for most people. Mercifully, one can still bake bread in the healthy tradition, though it now sadly, and ironically, takes more effort than relying upon industrial processes. Baking one’s own is nutritionally superior, develops simple but important skills and lowers reliance upon industrial society (if only a tiny bit), tastes fantastic, and cultivates patience. It also makes the kitchen smell fantastic. For these simple reasons it’s a rewarding practice. Knowing the basic processes of leavening can be of aid for the would-be baker. Yeast is a single celled organism that feeds on carbohydrates and excretes carbon dioxide and alcohol. The carbon dioxide is what fluffs up the bread, whilst the alcohol evaporates in a bread-making situation (in a brewing situation it remains and the carbon dioxide escapes). Lactobacillus feeds on by-products of yeast fermentation and excretes lactic acid, which causes the environment to sour. This discourages other microbes from developing, which protects the bread from spoiling. Both organisms are capable of speedy reproduction and are very difficult to kill. The only way to kill off a population is to raise the temperature of their environment to over about 38 degrees Centigrade (100 degrees Fahrenheit). Both organisms are encouraged by sugars and starches, such as potatoes, flours, sultanas or grapes, and are discouraged by salts, fats and oils. A final important component of bread is gluten, which is found in the protein of flour. Gluten is what gives the dough its elastic structure, ensuring the crumb of the risen dough will hold itself together, instead of crumbling like a cake or cookie. Gluten is developed in dough by kneading it thoroughly. Knowing these basics can greatly help you trouble shoot quality issues with your bread making. Sourdough Starter Sourdough bread making doesn’t rely upon commercially produced baker’s yeast, but cultivates organisms predominantly already present in the flour (though some maintain that it’s caught from the air). It is thus the least reliant upon the crutch of industry. It is however, a more involved process than normal baking, but with heightened rewards. It is recommended that the would-be baker begin with normal bread making to get adept at the other tasks of baking before trying sourdough, but nevertheless, if you’re keen to cultivate some free yeast just for the hell of it, by all means have a go. To begin cultivating a population of yeast and lactobacillus combine equal parts (preferably by weight) flour and water, perhaps 20g each, in a jar, put the lid on to discourage any other life forms and leave it in a warm place (about 70-85 degrees Fahrenheit, if room temperature is far from this, try an idling oven) for 48 hours. Check it after 24 to see if any bubbles are visible on the sides of the jar. If bubbles have formed, you’re in business. If none have formed after about 48 hours, discard the slush (though none of your confidence) and begin again. When you’ve got a visible set of bubbles around your jar, you need to feed your starter. Discard half of it (or even more, there’s enough bacteria in a few mL), and to the remainder add equal parts water and flour. Leave again and observe to see if it’s frothing up again, and smell it each time also. It should smell sour, and different to its initial smell (i.e. flour and water) and not rotten. The culture will typically not be very stable for at least a number of feedings like this, so don’t be in any kind of hurry. The culture will have a cycle that you will slowly get to know if you persist with maintaining it. As it gets to the stage where almost all of its food is eaten, population growth will slow, and there’ll be much waste product in your starter. The smell typically won’t be particularly nice, and there may be a layer of brown liquid, called hooch, atop your starter. This is the late stage which you want to avoid. Before your starter reaches this point, you want to have divided and replenished it with fresh food. That said, the culture can still improve from such a state. Remove the hooch, keep a small amount of the starter and feed it normally. To get a starter ready for baking, aim to rise the starter twice to the point where it expands so much that it collapses of its own accord. If it’s nearing the top of the jar, stir it a little so it reduces in volume (but don’t count that as a collapse). Once you’ve done this, you can refrigerate the jar, which reduces yeast activity and means you don’t have to feed it so often. Keep it away from the hooch stage though, by checking on it and feeding it once every one or two weeks as necessary. Rye flour is regarded as the best flour to use for starters; and it tastes great too. Baking Baking sourdough takes longer than normal bread that relies on industrial yeast, but if you’re a good person, you’ll know that in spite of the modern axiom ‘time is money’, you’d rather more of the former than the latter. What you want to do when preparing a sponge from your starter is mimic the process of feeding a starter, but to increase the volume with each feeding until you have a sponge of about 100% hydration (which is achieve by adding equal portions by weight of flour and water each time) containing about 40% of the total volume you aim to have for your loaf. Firstly you need to activate your starter, so take it out of the fridge about 2-3 hours before you want to begin, and let it warm up. Then take with 20g starter, and add 20g flour and water each. This should give you 60g sponge after a 3 or so hours fermenting. Then add to this 60g flour and water each, which after another fermenting spurt, should yield 180g sponge. I find that this is enough for a 500g gram loaf of sourdough, though more may be better. Mix the 180g active (it should be very bubbly) sponge with your other chosen baking ingredients. For me this means: a small addition of rye flour, some white flour, more water, 2 tsp of salt and perhaps 50g butter or 60mL olive oil. It is possible to actually make great sourdough from merely flour and water though. The amount of water and flour required are relative to each other. For a normal loaf, 500g flour will require about 300mL water. But with sourdough you need to factor in the water and flour contained in your sponge. I find that it can be easier, particularly if you already have baking experience, to just add your flour up to the desired amount and carefully add water as necessary. For caution’s sake, I tend to over water (but only by a tiny amount), as the flour will take up the moisture more as you knead it, particularly if you’ve got any wholemeal flours in the dough. Next, knead the dough very thoroughly: you should be able to observe the dough becoming more homogenous and elastic as you knead. It should take at least 6 minutes, but if in doubt, keep kneading, it can’t hurt. Leave the dough to ferment for about 7-8 hours (again use an idle oven for warmth), knocking the dough back, re-kneading and shaping it about halfway through. The dough should double in size with the fermentation process, if it doesn’t, the starter may need to be worked up to a more vigorous standard, or your dough may need to rest somewhere a little warmer, aim for about 28-32 Centigrade (around 80-90 degrees Fahrenheit). When sufficiently risen, place in a very hot oven (about 250 degrees Centigrade, or 480 degrees Fahrenheit) for 15 minutes. Lower temperature to 200-220 degrees Centigrade (400-425 degrees Fahrenheit) and bake for a further 15 mins. If the loaf appears to be burning at all, lower the temperature a little further. To ensure that it’s cooked, after removing it from the oven, gently tap the bottom of the loaf: if it sounds hollow, you’re in business. Turn out onto a wire rack, and don’t eat it before it’s well cooled. - Fieldmouse ---------- Features ---------- "Perennial Philosophy, Buddhism, and Richard Wagner's Der Ring des Nibelungen" The whole world is in flames, the whole world is consumed by fire, the whole world trembles. - Buddha, Samyutt., 1.133 One of the most evocative figures in the history of art is Richard Wagner. Wagner composed many extraordinary operas within his time, yet one of the most monumental productions of his is The Ring of the Nibelung. With The Ring, Wagner attempted to create a national epic for the German people formed from several texts of Nordic and Teutonic sagas and folk-tales. In doing so, Wagner not only revived an ancient, traditional way of life, but he also infused several modern elements with these elder worlds. One of the greatest influences on Wagner throughout his life was his interest in India and the Orient, which preceded the further encouragement of this interest by the philosophy of Arthur Schopenhauer. Though the interpretation of Eastern philosophy has often been erroneous, in Wagner's time this was mainly due to the general lack of authentic translations or any at all. Wagner seems to find common ground between ancient German and Indian Traditional culture (both being scions to an original Indo-Germanic culture) - for instance, the notion of gradual decline of the gods throughout the Ring and the forewarned destruction of Walhall. This decline is one of the major facets of the Eastern religions - the belief in the cyclical nature of history which begins with a "Golden Age" and ultimately decays internally to an age of cultural fragmentation and decadence, the last cosmic age before the end of civilization. This last age, known as Kali Yuga to the Indians and ma-fa to the Chinese, was known as Fimbulvetr to the Norse, and the following cosmic destruction was known as Ragnarok or Götterdämmerung, the doom of the powers. In addition to the non-creedal (or non-dogmatic) Pagan remnants of ancient Teutonic spirituality in the Ring and the inclusion of Aryo-Indian spirituality (which differ only superficially), elements of modern philosophy may also be found in his Ring. This is significant because the core tenet of Perennialism is that the Perennial Philosophy is a "[...] common inheritance of all mankind without exception [...]" (Coomaraswamy). All major religious traditions originally extend from this Perennial Philosophy, which has become misrepresented, distorted, and ultimately forgotten over time by all except for esoteric and mystical sects which have retained this tradition. Perennialism not only includes the Pagan religions of India and ancient Europe, but also Middle-Eastern religions, including Christianity. However, aside from the underlying Christian aspects, modern philosophical influences are also seen in The Ring, most notably the influence of Arthur Schopenhauer, whose philosophy of the denial of the will to live was supported by the examination and unfortunate misinterpretation of Buddhist and Brahamical beliefs by himself and other earlier Oriental scholars. Although many of Schopenhauer's interpretations were off, his most important contribution to philosophy was a reintroduction to Western thought of a system of cosmic ideology, which greatly influenced Wagner's works, including The Ring. This paper will attempt to analyze some of the Perennial aspects of the Ring which are derived from its Indo-Germanic spiritual basis, including European Paganism and Indian Buddhism, within the light of modern Schopenhauerian philosophical components which were introduced to the opera via the composer himself, Richard Wagner. A basic understanding of the Perennial Philosophy must be in place before considering its significance in the works of Richard Wagner. According to Aldous Huxley, the Perennial Philosophy in its entirety cannot be verbally expressed without some form of bias on the part of the speaker, whether sociological or personal. However, despite the uncertainty brought about through many different interpretations, there is an underlying "Highest Common Factor" of the most important religious and philosophical movements over the past twenty-five centuries (xi-xii). In his introduction to the Bhagavad-Gita, Huxley posits four fundamental doctrines of the Perennial Philosophy, the first of which is that there is a Divine Ground of which "the phenomenal world of matter and individualized consciousness" (xii) are manifestations. "Being" for all manifestations is derived from this Divine Ground, and without it these manifestations would not exist. The second doctrine asserts that man is capable of realizing the Divine Ground through "direct intuition, superior to discursive reasoning," uniting "the knower with that which is known" (xiii). The third doctrine affirms two natures of man: a "phenomenal ego" and an "eternal Self," the latter being of the "same or like nature" as the Divine Ground. In Hinduism the spirit (Atman) is identical to the Divine Ground (Brahman); in Christianity, however, the human spirit is not identified with God, but "assimilated and purified." Unitive knowledge of the Divine Ground can be achieved only in overcoming the cult of personality, which prevents awareness of one's inner being. The fourth doctrine is the assertion that this unitive knowledge of the Divine Ground, the "discovery of Truth," is man's single, ultimate purpose in life (xv). Huxley states that "contemplation of truth is the end, action the means." The modern, industrial world, however, contradicts this. With the developments in technology over the past few centuries, Western man, in particular, has come to believe that life itself and all of its components, including society and culture, is being made to be continually and progressively better. Thus a "Utopian future" becomes the center of man's concerns, instead of an ever present and eternal Truth which need not be manufactured but rediscovered through personal experience. The fourth doctrine of the Perennial Philosophy is reversed from seeking the discovery of unitive knowledge with the Divine Ground through achievement, to contemplation and discovery becoming the means to achievement (xvi). This "heresy" is one that is widely accepted, and becomes entrenched in the mind through media, education, and politics. Because the "metaphysical discipline of discrimination between the real and apparent [...] is exceedingly difficult," a fifth doctrine concerning Incarnations of the Divine Ground is most often included with the Perennial Philosophy. This Incarnation reminds other humans what they have forgotten: "if they choose to become what potentially they already are, they too can be eternally united with the Divine Ground" (xvii). The doctrine of the Perennial Philosophy can be found at the base of all of the world's major religious traditions, including various forms of Paganism, which would include Hinduism, Shintoism, and pre-Christian European heathenism. Thomas Carlyle states that while some scholars today may consider the Pagan religions of the past as "mere quackery" or the allegorical "play of poetic minds," what we regard today as Pagan mythology was originally to a "rude" Norseman the beholding of the "great deep sacred infinitude of Nescience," the organic function of Nature-Universe or the Divine Ground ("Lecture"). Being unable to express themselves in the "scientific" terms modern man does, but possessing the "free open sense of a child," the Pagan mythological world was reality for the first Pagan thinkers. The gods are "impersonations of the visible workings of Nature" (Carlyle). For these men everything was a reflection or manifestation of the Divine Ground, and nothing reflected this more than man himself, particularly the great man. Thus began the practice of Hero-worship, "heartfelt prostrate admiration, submission, burning, boundless, for a noblest godlike Form of Man" (Carlyle). Of all the gods, Oðinn or Wotan is the impersonation of the Noble Man. He realizes the true nature of the universe, the Divine Ground, and has come to identify himself with it, transcending all other manifestations of it. It is through his foresight and meditation that he is able to lead men and enforce his "will," or to be more specific, the impersonal Perennial doctrine, with his spear, Force. With recognizing the divinity of Nature and Man comes realizing the transience of the world as a manifestation of the divine, like the flux of the Rhine, a continuous process of becoming and ending. Even civilizations and the entire cosmic order must end, and this is what is known in Germanic mythology as Götterdämmerung. Carlyle states that the ancient Germans realized that "all dies, and even gods die, yet all death is but a phoenix fire-death [...]." Although the established order ends, eternal principles remain. Götterdämmerung begins after the end of an age of cultural decay called Fimbulvetr, known in Hindu cosmology as Kali Yuga, in which the basic foundations of a civilization or society, Perennial Doctrine, become so obscured that they are negated or reversed. For instance, with the establishment of industry, commerce, and technology as the highest values in the West instead of such things as culture, spirituality, and nature, these latter values become poisoned and Truth becomes something which is not eternally present and able to be realized, but something in the future waiting to be established or experienced. Perhaps this is why so many people around the world feel the appeal of the ancient Greek, Roman, Indian, and Scandinavian epics: they realize the truth in Perennialism/Traditionalism, the sacredness of Nature, the divine spark within Mankind as a part of Nature, the cyclical pattern of history, ever establishing and re-establishing Tradition followed by gradual decline, an archetype engrained in what Carl Jung would call the "collective unconscious." One of the most renowned contributors to Traditionalism (or Perennialism) is the esotericist Julius Evola, an Italian baron whose primary works were written in the first half of the 20th Century and pertain to a vast area of subjects, including politics, philosophy, religion, and history. One of these works includes an analysis of primitive Buddhism, intended to be offered as an alternate spiritual way to self-discipline and heroic action for mankind in the age of Kali Yuga. Jean Varenne, who wrote the introduction to Evola's The Doctrine of Awakening, takes notice to compare Evola's aristocratic background and the noble origins of the Buddha, Prince Siddhartha (Varenne xvii). Varenne also points out that Evola takes a very scholarly approach in his gathering of large numbers of original Pali sources, which is the language which the Buddha spoke (Varenne xix). Few religions have been able to express the Perennial Philosophy more clearly and holistically than the Brahmanic religions of Hinduism and Buddhism. Although the doctrines of the Perennial Philosophy are evident in the many different cultural manifestations of it, the Brahmanical religions, most importantly early Vedism and early Buddhism, provide some of the oldest methods of ascesis for obtaining what is known as self-mastery, the unconditioned, nirvana. This awareness begins with the realization of samsara, the world of becoming, of "experience itself, consuming itself in its own momentary content" (Evola 44). The process is continuous, yet it is "a succession of states that give place to one another according to an impersonal law, as in an eternal circle" (44). Each individual life is recognized as khanda or santana, which are understood to be a conglomeration and a current respectively, and dhamma or dharma, defined as "factors or variables of existence that apply, or which have particular values, at each instant" (Everett), and which Evola describes as formations of "vortices or currents of psychophysical elements and of allied states" (45) that are built up under certain conditions and later dissolve once these conditions change and conglomerate at some other point in samsara. From this comes the Buddhist saying in the Dhammapada, which Evola quotes: "'All the elements of existence are transitory' ? 'All things are without individuality or substance'" (45). Evola asserts that upon achieving samsaric consciousness, the illusion of the "I" is realized as "a flux, current or indefinite series of insubstantial states determined by dukkha" (56), which roughly translating as agitation, suffering, or restlessness (49). After samsaric consciousness is "mastered" one can find the passage to the "unconditioned and extra-samsaric." (56). Much of the information which Evola presents comes from some of the earliest Buddhist texts, such as the Sutta-pitaka and the Samyutta-nikaya. However, during the time of Richard Wagner, many of these texts were not available. Because of the lack of earlier Buddhist texts and the often inadequate translations of the available texts, the German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer misinterpreted and misunderstood much of Buddhism, which is not entirely his fault, since these "Pali texts that fully expounded the philosophy of dharma [...] were not translated into Western languages before the end of the century" (Everett). Schopenhauer's philosophy is based around the denial of will to live, which "does not in any way imply the annihilation of a substance; it means merely the act of non-volition: that which previously willed, wills no more" (Schopenhauer 61). Schopenhauer interpreted the Buddhist concept of nirvana as a state of non-being, whereas in actuality, nirvana is not a state being or not-being, and is technically impossible to be explained directly. This misinterpretation in turn misled those influenced by Schopenhauer in how they regarded Buddhism, who would include not only Friedrich Nietzsche but also Richard Wagner. Indeed, Wagner was very much influenced by Schopenhauer, of whom Wilhelm Halbfass speaks of, in his India and Europe, as "the only philosopher whom Wagner really recognized" (124). Although Wagner had previously been exposed to Indian thought, especially through Indologists, such as his brother-in-law, Hermann Brockhaus, Wagner found within Schopenhauer " a metaphysical key to his own artistic endeavors" (Halbfass 124). Indeed, Wagner had planned to compose a Buddhist opera, Die Sieger, which was to be based off of the Sardulakar?avadana of Buddhist lore, however this venture was never fulfilled (Halbfass 124). Nevertheless, due to the inaccuracy or Schopenhauer's interpretation of Brahmanical and Buddhist religion, such as the interpretation of nirvana as a state of non-existence, is essentially false because, as a dharma, nirvana is something which exists, even though it is "intrinsically undefinable and inexpressible" (Everett). In a letter to his father-in-law, Franz Liszt, written in 1955, Wagner states: This act of denying the will is the true action of the saint [...] it is ultimately accomplished only in a total end to individual consciousness -- for there is no other consciousness except that which is personal and individual [...] in truth they were striving only to achieve the destruction of their own individuality, i.e. their existence. This most profound of all instincts finds purer and more meaningful expression [...] in Brahmin teaching, and especially in its final transfiguration in Buddhism, where it achieves its most perfect form. - Wagner, Letter to Franz Liszt, 1855 The fundamental error seen in Wagner's understanding of Buddhism is that he accepts "individual consciousness" as the only consciousness, whereas in the documents Evola has researched, the individual and individual consciousness are mere currents within the continual flux of samsara. Wagner, as well as all other Westerners of his time, had no knowledge of the Buddhist notion of the unconditional, or what Aldous Huxley would refer to as unitive knowledge of the Divine Ground, which is continually reflected and made manifest within the physical world. To Wagner, then, the destruction of the individual, or the removal of the cult of personality becomes an end in itself rather than a step in the process to contemplation of a higher Truth, similar to how Friedrich Nietzsche tried to describe nihilism not as the end in itself but a tool used to distinguish mentally-contrived illusion from reality. With the convergence of Paganism, Perennial Philosophy and Buddhism with Wagner's Schopenhauerian denial of the will, one is spiritually torn between the implications of Wagner's pessimistic ideology of redemption of the will to live found within The Ring and the original overarching significance of the Nibelung epic as the affirmation of life through transcendental realization of the "will" or the "I" as subject to a higher force. Although the later personal philosophy of Wagner seems to be a fatalistic one of redemption and denial of the will, the intrinsic Perennial aspect is a positive one which recognizes a transcendent force "connected with the emotive and irrational energies [...]" that " [...] gradually identifies itself as the very force that rules the profound functions of physical life, over which the 'will,' the 'mind,' and the 'I' have very little influence, to which they are external and on which they live parasitically [...]" (Evola 55). The fatalism of Wagner, which can be otherwise characterized as a negative nihilism, is a very pronounced feature within the Ring, becoming particularly evident within the character of Wotan. Wagner's Wotan brings forth into being through his "will" Walhall. However, in making a contract with the giants upon his spear, he promises Freia to them. It is with this error that Walhall, and the reign of the gods, comes into being. This is reminiscent of Wagner's accounting of the Brahmanical myth of the creation of the world: [Brahminism] puts forth a myth in which the world is created by God; but it does not praise this act as a boon, but presents it as a sin committed by Brahma for which the latter atones by transforming himself into the world and by taking upon himself the immense sufferings of the world; he is redeemed in those saints who, by totally denying the will to live, pass over into nirvana, i.e. the land of non-being, as a result of their consuming sympathy for all that suffers. - Wagner, Letter to Franz Liszt, 1855 In creating the world, Wotan commits a sin, an error, and through Wagner's interpretation of Brahmanic myth, Wotan too must atone for this sin, putting the "immense sufferings of the world" not only upon his shoulders, but upon the shoulders of his offspring, the Wälsungs and the Walkyries. Although Wotan often interferes, he cannot achieve total redemption unless some saint should totally deny the will to live without intervention. This brings about the question of who in Wagner's Ring this saint is. Siegfried and Brünnhilde are the two most likely candidates since the entirety of the epic is balance upon them as the final two major characters in the opera. Although Siegfried bears the sufferings of Wotan greatly, he is heroic in nature: he asserts the value of life as a whole, neither as a path for individual material gain, nor a great cosmic blunder for which mankind must atone. He has spent his entire youth within the forest, which as an organic system of order is one of the most supreme examples of the hierarchical cosmic ideology of the Perennial Philosophy. From his experience in the forest he would certainly have a greater natural wisdom or, more appropriately, intuition of the cyclical, sa?saric nature of existence, and from this understanding he is able to transcend the "individual" and attune his eternal Self with the Divine Ground. It is only through intoxication from the nepenthe given by Hagen to Siegfried that he makes a tragic error. However, on the other hand with Brünnhilde there is much to suggest the role of the saint. Everett points out that Wagner, being "under the influence of Indian thought" changed the ending of Götterdämmerung. In the original text Brünnhilde claims to know everything, meaning the circumstances of Siegfried's death; however, in the 1865 version, ten years after his letter to Liszt, she "declared that she became die Wissende [the Knowing One], which, Carl Suneson suggested, we are to interpret in the Buddhist sense of a bodhisattva." Wagner clearly expresses his idea of the Buddha in reference to one who redeems Brahma in his letter to Liszt: The Buddha was just such a saint; according to his doctrine of metempsychosis, every living creature will be reborn in the shape of that being to which he caused pain, however pure his life might otherwise have been, so that he himself may learn to know pain; his suffering soul continues to migrate in this way, and he himself continues to be reborn until such time as he causes no more pain to any living creature in the course of some new incarnation but, out of fellow-suffering (Mitleid), completely denies himself and his own will to live. - Wagner, Letter to Franz Liszt, 1855 From these two pieces of evidence one is able to infer that Brünnhilde is intended to be the saint upon whom the redemption Brahma and the world is fulfilled. In her self-immolation she returns the ring to the Rhinemaidens, ending the curse that had caused so much pain to the world. It is in these actions of ending suffering and the denial of the will to live that Wagner intends for the world to be redeemed. Upon noting the origins of this saintly woman, Brünnhilde, one also finds an uncanny connection. Her father, Wotan, "raging or possessed," the warrior-artist on whom the redemption of the world is placed is confronted with the wise Erda, who is a Wala. The term "Wala" is rooted in the Indo-Germanic "wal/walh-," which signifies someone or something that is strange or foreign, and specifically for a German - a non-German. This encounter of Wotan with the Wala could perhaps be a symbolization of early encounters of the ancient Germans with the Celts, the bearers of an ideological system that very much paralleled that of India. Yet even beyond this, perhaps there lies a metaphor for Wagner, as Wotan, and his own encounter with India (Erda). A romantic nationalist such as Wagner, taking upon himself the embodiment of the consciousness of the German race, would most certainly consider the Indians as "Walh" much like ancient Germans considered their Celtic neighbors "Walh," and from which the names Wales, Wallonia, and Wallachia come. It is from this love affair between Wotan (Wagner) and the Wala Erda (India) that Brünnhilde, the Saint, the path to the redemption, is born, much as Wagner's discovery of the Eastern religions and Schopenhauer's pessimistic philosophy prompted him on the road towards the denial of the will to live. However, Wagner cannot achieve his ultimate goal of redemption with a fearless, life-affirming hero such as Siegfried, who has shattered the corrupt law of Wotan with his sword. Therefore it is necessary for the Hero to be introduced to fear, and it is through the love of Brünnhilde that this occurs. Love, in the end, is what brings the Hero to his death, and through love the Saint denies the will to live and redeems the world with her self-immolation and the return of the Ring to the Rhine. This redemption of the will through love is found throughout many of Wagner's other operas, such as Tristan und Isolde, however, some propose that one of the main reasons Wagner never completed his Buddhist opera, Die Sieger, is because of his failed attempt "to correct the philosophy of Schopenhauer so that it would accommodate the possibility of a total pacification of the will through love" (Everett). Thus, this gradual advance toward the abandonment of redemption through love not only takes a pessimistic turn in The Ring, with the utter destruction of an entire cosmic order, but actually may have led to the prevention of one of Wagner's intended creations. Of this turning toward redemption and denial of the will to live which occurred towards the end of Wagner's life, Friedrich Nietzsche said: "There is nothing on which Wagner has reflected so much as redemption: his opera is the opera of redemption." (459-60). It is uncertain whether or not Wagner intends the raising of a better world, a new Golden Age, out of the ruins of Walhall. However, it is certain that to the original Pagan authors of the Nibelung saga embraced the Perennial Truth and the cyclical view of history, that from the ashes of the previously fallen civilization and cosmic order only those who are the most heroic will arise with a "new-birth into the Greater and the Better! It is the fundamental Law of Being for a creature made of Time, living in this Place of Hope" (Carlyle). Although Wagner intends to introduce Buddhism as a path to the negation of the will to live, it is with the utmost irony one finds that being interpreted properly through the earliest texts and accurate translations, as Evola has done, Buddhism itself affirms Life on a holistic, transcendent level, even further affirming the Pagan Perennial element of the original myths from which Wagner derives his Ring. In Wagner's opera the burning of Walhall and the destruction of the entire cosmic order is redemption and denial of the will to live, the passing into what Wagner perceived of as "non-being." In connection to the several leitmotivs in The Ring, it is also interesting to observe that in a note preceding Julius Evola's The Doctrine of Awakening, an anonymous editor comments on how many of the Buddhist teachings are "set forth in the form of leitmotif [...] passages that recur in various texts, almost in identical form" (v). One of these repeated symbolisms is that of the "burning world," which Evola has commented on and explained as symbolizing the driving force behind samsaric existence, a sort of craving and thirst. With the Perennial perspective in mind, one is able to draw a deep insinuation from The Ring: in the gradual decline of Wotan from assertive and heroic to withdrawn and fatalistic, so too does civilization decline from its Golden Age to a period of decadence which eventually consumes itself with the fire of desire, aversion, and delusion. Yet this fire, tanha, is the "central force of samsaric existence" which is also found "in birth and death, in decay, in every kind of pain and suffering" (Evola 49). As surely as the world burns it will give birth again to a new age, but it is only through the actions of the transcendent Hero, through whose actions contemplation and discovery brings mankind in union with the Divine Ground and we enter a new Golden Age. Works Cited: "A Note on Sources." 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Millington, London: Dent, 1987. Rpt. 2003. "Wagner, Buddhism and Parsifal." Derrick Everett. http://home.c2i.net/monsalvat/india.htm#Buddhism. - unzeitgeist -=- "The Development of the Ego" It is said that man's best bet on survival is to adapt, and that I wholeheartedly agree with. But what is adaptation from a spiritual aspect? Isn't it submission under the laws of nature, denying of the absolute worth of self? It certainly is, to the horror of the "modern individualist", who seeks to assert his own ego and belief of his intrinsic uniqueness, like so many others. Self-image, the ego, most likely developed when nature couldn't rule with such an absolute power over the tribes of ancient times and these tribes then found themselves distanced a bit from nature, not being so entirely dependant on it anymore, although not fully free either. Of course, the ego wasn't totally nonexistent during those more "shamanistic" times but it wasn't as strongly underlined and placed high on a pedestal as it is nowadays, due to the "misty" connection with the land: the sources of food were not permanent due to depletion or the fleet feet of wild game following the turning of seasons. To the hunter-gatherer tribes of old, adaptation was the way to go and the only thing egoistic in that was that of tribe serving the best interest of the tribe itself. The introduction of agriculture struck a wedge between man and nature, although a miniscule one compared to the jackhammers of today. Man "found" himself through being capable of more than mere survival and realized that there is something that cuts through the wind when standing against it: him. He desired change, he was passionate to carve his mark on the stone of eternity. And so, the people of that time were idealistic to a degree: "Victory or defeat, I will nevertheless push forwards!" That was, and is, the only way to achieve true change. One must be like a vector, pushing towards a certain direction, steadfast and never loosening grip on one's axe to achieve. Anything else would have been adaptation, incompatible with such a culture focused towards triumphing. Although the difference was not this stark initially, it developed and grew. However, as all things cycle and morph all the time and nothing stays static, these striving cultures created civilizations and these civilizations, well, built upon themselves, towering far above the ground. So, we are being distanced from our surroundings, further and further every passing day - a far cry from the pre-agricultural mentality of people. But surely not everyone is a vector in today's world? No, not everyone, as there are many who simply choose to adapt to the status quo, which may be an unconscious remnant from the ancient times; the phrase "to go with the flow" applies in both the social and metaphorical contexts. In other words, they might themselves feel like vectors, but when the pretense is stripped they move nowhere by themselves on the system of coordinates, perfectly adapted to their immediate surroundings like a driftwood gently rocking between two waves in a stream. In the other end of the spectrum there are the tower-builders, who lay stones upon stones to rise higher, although the spot where they laid the stone foundation has not moved anywhere over the course of centuries, and how could it have? You cannot pull a thread from a fabric without breaking it up, can you? As colossal as the change brought by cultivation of land was, still it did not free people from the cycle of seasons, the winds of the world; much in the same manner, our current towers sway by the passing of these winds, regardless of their age. It's only that gusts of air are not so evident up in the skies, far above the clouds, until they pummel the tower itself. Vectors make change, static dots adapt to their position. The forces in power push us upward on this narrow path, perhaps toward a looming black hole and the fortified focus on individualism keeps us blind from what happens in our surroundings: is the building on which we build on already weak and fragile, destined to crumble from piling even one block on it? We do not know nor care, we only want to toss a dozen blocks on it. Would it be reasonable for us to strive to adapt to the land surrounding this tower, to be a countering force as even the chances of mere survival look frighteningly dim? - frostwood ------------------- Self-Sufficiency ------------------- Composting: Reduce the amount of waste that goes to the landfill by composting. If you live out in the country or in an apartment in the heart of a large city you can compost. For those unfamiliar, composting is a natural soil decomposition process performed by soil inhabiting macro and microorganisms such as fungi, earthworms and protozoa. During the process of decomposition a brown/black, nutrient rich byproduct is produced called humus. When humus is produced you have compost that is rich in nutrients. Composting can be utilized to break down organic matter from ones own home, such as kitchen scraps, as well as soil and plant materials like leaves, grass clippings and hay. Utilizing the decomposition process reduces the amount of material waste sent to the landfill and the nutrient rich fertilizer produced can be used to fertilize any soil of your choice. What to Compost Good things to compost: Grass Clippings, Leaves, kitchen scraps, shredded paper, saw dust, wood chips, hay, straw, corn cobs, fruit and vegetable leftovers, shredded cardboard, egg shells, and most anything else organic and easily biodegradable. Bad things to compost: Chemical waste, Styrofoam, fats and grease, chemically treated woods, human waste, dairy, meat, oil, plastics. *note: Fats, grease, oil, meat and dairy are generally not recommended for compost piles because they attract bad smells, rodents and insects. If you are willing to deal with smells, insects and rodents, then go ahead and compost meat, oil, grease and dairy products. How to compost Composting is a relatively simple process. It’s almost as easy as putting your compostable waste items (as noted above) into a pile and letting them decompose naturally. However doing it like this takes a long time, therefore in order to fully take advantage of the decomposition process, an understanding of the factors making a successful active compost pile is in order. Regardless of the method you choose to use for composting, these are the four most important factors you need to keep in mind for a successful compost pile: 1. Aeration 2. Moisture 3. Carbon to Nitrogen ratio 4. Temperature Aeration - Aerobic life forms are the dominant decomposers in a compost pile therefore it is essential to make sure your compost pile remains aerated. Allow the pile to remain lose and don’t compact it. Compacting will limit airflow. Occasionally turning and shifting the compost pile increases aeration and is virtually necessary to keep up efficient decomposition. Also cutting up scraps that go into the pile exposes more surface area, which speeds up the decomposition process. Moisture - The next important thing to keep in mind is the moisture of your pile. Decomposers require moisture in order to live, thus you must make sure your compost pile maintains a certain amount of moisture. The moisture level should be about the same as a wrung out sponge. If there is greater or less moisture than this the decomposition process will go much slower. If you live in a dry climate plan to put your pile in a shaded place so that less moisture will evaporate and be sure to add moisture to it more frequently. If you live in a rather wet climate put your compost in a dryer area and perhaps have some sort of cover available to keep out excess rain and moisture. Carbon to Nitrogen Ratio - This is one of the most important things to consider when starting a compost pile. Micro and macro organisms doing the decomposition need carbon and nitrogen to survive, however too much carbon and nitrogen can be harmful to them. The ideal carbon to nitrogen ratio for composting is 30:1. Here’s a brief list of carbon to nitrogen levels found in some commonly composted items. Compost Items: C:N Ratio: Hay 12:1 Kitchen Scraps 15:1 Grass Clippings 19:1 Coffee Grounds 20:1 Rotten Manure 20:1 Leaves 60:1 Paper 180:1 Wood chips 300:1 In order to get good compost, mix and match some of these ingredients into your compost pile. Fresh material generally has a lower carbon to nitrogen ratio than does material that has had a while to decompose. Since most materials are higher in carbon than nitrogen make sure to consciously add nitrogen rich materials to your compost pile. As a rule of thumb, green materials are higher in nitrogen while brown materials are generally higher in carbon. So an easy way to think of the carbon to nitrogen level is 30 parts brown and 1 part green, or for the amount of kitchen scraps put into the compost pile, put an equal amount of brown material. Following this rule of thumb should give you a healthy compost pile. Temperature - As decomposition takes place the microorganisms produce an exothermic reaction that heats up the pile. If you have a good carbon to nitrogen level, moisture, aeration and volume for your pile this reaction will create a temperature anywhere between 110 to 140 degrees. However if you live in a climate where the temperatures get exceptionally cold you will need to locate your compost pile in a place that averages a temperature of at least fifty degrees. If your pile freezes it will only temporarily stunt the decomposers and decomposition will begin again once the pile thaws. Methods of Composting Compost Heap: An open compost heap is a recommended method only for those individuals who have open land and are willing to spare some of it for composting duties. Creating a compost heap is quite simple. Section of an area of your land and begin filling it with yard and kitchen scraps. Make sure the compost stays moist and occasionally turn the heap for quicker composting time. Covering your heap with a tarp and or straw will help it keep more stable composting conditions. Once the heap starts to get to a good size-this might take anywhere from 6 to 24 weeks depending on your waste output-begin a new pile so as to let the old pile fully decompose. You will know the pile is done decomposing when it emanates an earthy aroma and is a rich brown or black color. Pros: Takes little to no money and is easy to do. Cons: Not orderly or aesthetically pleasing. Pile occasionally needs to be turned manually. Composting in Bins and Containers: Composting in containers or holding units is relatively easy and inexpensive. There are many different kinds of composting containers and holding units that can be purchased or made. I will list a few container options and how to construct them yourself: Mesh Wire Bin: Take a 10-foot long, 36-inch wide sheet of 1-inch galvanized chicken wire and fold its short ends back three or four inches. Bring together the folded ends to make a circle and tie them tightly together using industrial strength wire. Set the newly constructed wire cylinder in the place you wish to compost. You can apply stakes around the inside boarder of the wire circle for added stability (this is an optional step). Buckets: Composting can also be done in 10 gallon buckets. Simply place the composting items in the bucket, take into account all the SAME factors listed in the 'how to' section and allow for decomposition to take place. The downsides to this method are its lack of space, and the difficulty in mixing the materials together. If you choose this method make sure to have a few buckets on hand so that when one gets full you can leave it to the side to decompose and start filling a new one. This method, along with the other bin methods, takes time. Trashcans: Get a plastic or metal garbage can and poke holes in the bottom, the sides and the lid to help with aeration. Place the trashcan on top of bricks and put a pan underneath to collect any water runoff. Put a bit of soil and grass clippings at the bottom of the trash can and then begin filling it with compost materials as normal. Wooden Pallet Bin: Grab four wooden pallets like the ones found behind grocery stores. Stand them erect and place them next to each other to create a square bin. Screw them together or use wire to tie them together. If you want a bottom, grab a fifth pallet and place it on the bottom. This is a simple and nearly free way to make a decent wooden compost bin. The bin can be converted into more bins by adding more pallet walls.

These are just some of the ways you can compost using bins and containers. If none of these appeal to you or you find them unfeasible, consider designing your own small compost bin. Ideal compost piles are 3 feet wide and 3 feet deep, but there are no rules about making them smaller. For apartment dwellers a couple of these methods are applicable, such as the trashcan and bucket methods. Pros: Keeps pile neat and orderly and is a quick and inexpensive method. Cons: Slow decomposition time Compost Tumbler: A compost tumbler is something you can buy or make yourself. Buying it can cost you over 100 dollars so my recommendation is to make it if you have the time. I won’t go into the details of making a tumbler yourself as it is a more extensive process than the other methods discussed, but I will say that if you scour your local scrap yard you should find many of the materials needed for the project such as a 55 gallon drum, metal piping, and wood. This method of composting is perhaps the quickest way to compost a lot of material. Pros: Fastest form of composting Cons: Expensive when buying, time consuming and labor intensive when building Vermiculture: This method involves composting with red wriggler worms (Eisenia foetida). Since worms are natural decomposers they break down the items you put into a composting bin. An advantage of vermiculture is that it requires less time and space than other methods, which makes it perfect for those living in an apartment. Build a container to your preferred size, or find an old trunk and or wooden container and convert it into a worm bin. You want your container to be at least six to twelve inches deep and it needs to have a lid. Holes also need to be drilled into the container to allow for aeration (8 to 12 holes in the bottom should work, but make sure to elevate the bin if you put them in the bottom). Once you have your container layer it with shredded newspaper, cardboard, and leaves (sawdust, straw and other dead plants will work well too). Cover those items with a bit of sandy dirt. Fill your container about three-quarters full with bedding before you put in the worms and make sure that the bedding is loose. As for how many worms you need to put in your container, it varies based upon how much food waste you dump out per day on average. A general ratio is one pound of food waste a day requires two pounds of worms (2000 worms). Make a note of this ratio and use it when deciding how many worms you will need. It is important that you keep the soil in the bin at a temperature between 40 to 80 degrees Fahrenheit otherwise the worms will die. If you keep your bin outside, consider taking it in on particularly cold nights. If you live in a very cold area, it is a must that you keep it inside someplace warm on freezing nights. Pros: Great for composting food scraps in apartments Cons: Temperature needs to be kept up. Large amount of worms needed to effectively decompose kitchen scraps. Trash Bag Composting: Put the same things you would normally compost into a large black or opaque trash bag and add a couple of cups of soil. Make sure there are no holes in the bag, if there are mend them with duct tape. When full, seal the bag and let it lay out in the sun. The contents of the bag should turn to usable compost in three to four weeks. This method is simple, quick, and perfect for anyone living in an apartment, as it doesn’t require a large amount of space. Pros: Simple and quick method Cons: Doesn’t hold much, wastes bags. Special considerations for Apartment Composting: Since most apartment dwellers don’t have access to grass clippings, leaves and other sorts of vegeatation, they should make a special attempt to gather leaves, grass clipping and wood shavings from around the community. Another bit of advice to those living in an aparment is to assess the space you have to work with before going to buy materials to build a compost bin. Take a bit of time to measure out an area of your patio or balcony beforehand, it could save you time and resources. Time Disclaimer Composting takes time, it’s not an overnight process. Keep this in mind when you decided upon what method you want to use when composting. Depending on the size of the pile composting can take anywhere from 3 weeks to 24 months. Generally small, active compost piles take 4 to 6 weeks, which means that if you are in an apartment or small residence your composting time will be shorter. If you have the land to start a large pile of well over 3 feet wide and 3 feet deep, it will take around 12 to 24 months for the compost to finish. You can keep adding material to the compost and it is recommended that you eventually start a second compost pile to allow the original one to finish without having half decomposed materials in it. If you can only begin one pile, throw the still decomposing materials into your next pile. Conclusion Once your compost is ready you can use it to fertilize your own garden. If you don’t have a garden you can give it to someone who does and if that isn’t an option for you, you can go and fertilize an empty dirt lot. Even if you can’t use the fertilizer yourself the compost is still useful and it helps eliminate the extra waste that gets shipped to the landfill. - phantasm References: [1]"Composting Your Garbage" [on line] Available at http://www.guvswd.org/compost
[2]"Composting Your Organic Kitchen Wastes with Worms" [on line] Available at http://www.ext.vt.edu/pubs/bse/442-005/442-005.html#L3 [3]"Composting in an Apartment or Condo" [on line] Available at http://www.dfwnetmall.com/earth/compost-condo-apartment.htm [4]"The Way of the Compost" [on line] Available at http://www.humboldt.edu/~ccat/wastereduction/composting/ralphSP2002/comp osting.html [5]"Carbon to Nitrogen Ratio for Various Compostable Materials" [on line] Available at http://www.microtack.com/html/compost_carbon.html ------------ Literature ------------ "Forgotten legend" Iron barrel, golden visor A midnight trance has opened its door The oldest plains of my consciousness Near the astral fortress Marrow and bone, flesh to stone A hand in your heart a planet'shone Where light grows and green sows The shadow died, and blood flowed An ant with a sword on a winged horse Through an opening, he marches with force A victorious ride to the land of the dead The insect hero approaches the war gate. - ted olieken -=- "Fatal Embrace" A sunrise that would have had a more emotional person in tears rose above the treetops. For Nick, it was neatly filed in the mental folder of "things to give a shit about when I have children", a thought which inevitably trod the logical next step down that mental path: You have to find a wife first. At least, a woman who didn't recoil from his personality as though it were a rabid canine. Interesting considerations, but Nick had to get ready for work. Usually, he was the kind of guy who liked having a morning to himself before heading off to his daily drudgery; unfortunately, a spur of the moment gathering with some work acquaintances at a bar the night previous had disintegrated that routine. He had woken late with that sandy feeling behind the eyes and the bitter aftertaste of whatever insipid brew he'd been drinking curdling his tastebuds. He didn't usually suffer the next day when these events happened, but it did throw a pall on everything that chanced his way, as Nick couldn't commit his full potential to anything. It was no matter to him though. He'd lived through enough hangovers to survive this one. By profession, Nick was the nighttime line cook at a restaurant in town whose only claim to fame was the quality of its breakfasts; it turned over some two hundred breakfasts a day, mostly commuters off the highway passing through in need of a quick bite, but when it came to the dinner shift, it was a ghost town. He usually worked them by himself, a scheduling marvel which oftentimes came back to remind him of just how insightful the bureaucratic forethought of his superiors was when a large turnout suddenly materialized, leaving him cursing and struggling to meet the demand. His chef was a short-tempered, high-strung individual who was an affable guy outside of work demands, but an insufferable tyrant whilst working his breakfasts. Nick was glad that he didn't work with him all that often, as the man set his teeth on edge with his constant, incessantly impractical orders when the pressure was on. Nick admired the older bus he had stepped onto that was taking him downtown, as its construction dated to when the use of actual cushioning in the seats was not a costly consideration, but noted as usual the degeneration time had worn on its chassis and wondered why they didn't just upgrade the entire fleet. He wasn't about to get a second and third job to afford a car though; he was in a deep enough hole trying to get into culinary school, as that was the only way to advance in this town and in the industry, and schooling required money - money which flew out of his hands as soon as he touched it. He considered carving something into the antique seats. The politics of a bus were fascinating to him. It was a fantastic vantage point to observe humanity; you could literally see the self-absorption of each and every person. Cackling teenage girls nattering on loudly in the back about some dreamy guy who treated them like slime, the autistic retard who couldn't grasp the concept of walking up stairs to save its life, the old woman who falls accidentally with everyone around her too busy blathering on their cell phones to notice, or the driver himself who flies through the bus route, totally disrupting the purpose of the schedule, so that he can linger at one of the major stops for ten minutes to smoke and chat on his own cell phone - all of it was complete and utter insanity to Nick. Often, he had to stop himself from noticing it all and focus on the outside world drifting by, or his own thoughts. His thoughts often centered themselves around what he would do that evening when he got off work. Nick was mentally an outsider to the ebb and flow of civilization, and as such, he didn't really partake in the same activities that most of the crowd believed were interesting methods for killing time. He didn't do much in the mornings; he kept his time usage to simple things in order to quiet the oncoming stress of the day. The nights were frequently spent imbibing so as to bury the stupidity of the day now behind him. Because of his lack of care for finding a social niche, Nick could venture anywhere that had a decent selection of alcohol and a distinctly unannoying bartender to pour it. Occasionally, it made for some interesting viewpoints into society, its disparate scenes, and the fools who populated them. Nick often chatted with the bartenders while there - the guys who poured the drinks were usually pretty funny individuals who could keep anyone idly engaged for a night. It was a welcome change from the sterility of his own dwindling circle of friends, albeit a very fleeting change. Sooner or later, Nick was either going to have to cut ties with those friends, although this was already happening in its own passive fashion as they themselves grew up and became more entangled within their developing lives with their new spouses, homes and children; either that, or he was going to have to find a way to renew interest in himself for catching up to them socially, find himself a nice girl, and "settle down, man." "what the hell would I want to do that for?" Ryan always fidgeted nervously when he brought this subject up around Nick; he was of the impression that he was the sole voice of reason left in Nick's life, and thought that with enough persuasion, he could get him to see it for himself. "I don't know man, you're always out drinking, or sunk in your books, or working too much to get away from yourself. A good woman would help you out, help you find some sort of center in your life." Nick casually rolled his eyes at the expected response. "in case you haven't noticed, I'm not really marriage material. If I don't want it, why should I go looking for it?" "I'm not saying marriage, dumbass. Just get yourself a girl and settle down. Everyone else that you know, including myself, has married or is about to be. Why else do you think I hardly have time to hang out anymore? I'm growing up, and I have different responsibilities now, specifically to Sarah and our future plans." "and you know that I wish you and her the best in those plans. I just don't see why that has to change or negate the person you used to be. It's that exact sort of 'settling down' that makes me question the whole thing." "jesus, you and your goddamned individuality. It isn't hard to give of yourself and still be the same person you always were, but responsibility takes a toll, whether we like it or not. Look Nick, people talk. All I hear when I get together with the boys and their ladies is 'what's up with Nick? Why no woman in his life yet?'" "well, be sure and give them all my fondest regards for their concern." Settle. The word carried such frighteningly ironclad connotations when he pondered it through these remembered discussions. Maybe he enjoyed his "freedom" (such as it was) too much to shackle himself to a situation like that for the remainder of his existence, but maybe he was scared of commitment to responsibility. Maybe it was a death wish, what with all the drinking he did. In any case, that was his life pattern outside of paying the bills and sweating over a volcanic charbroiler flipping steaks. He didn't really question much any longer, having outgrown his phase of youthful rebellion from a system that he quickly realized was too big to fight. He simply existed from each day to the next, going from one meaningless social encounter to another, worrying in the back of his mind about whether he could afford another night out tomorrow balanced against the rent check being due in a week, wondering whether that cute waitress who had given him a smile the other day was just doing her job or extending an offer of something more, mentally counting the months until he was able to take that week and a half off of work, infrequently making a fool of himself publicly for having had two drinks too many and acting stupidly. Suffice it to say, landing in the drunk tank had inadvertently cost him his job once before; he didn't need that to happen again, so he had taught himself to keep his drinking within sane limits. * * * * Service didn't end up going well for Nick - four steaks overcooked, and a burnt liver that ended up going out because he made the mistake of believing the server who told him the customer would never notice its carbonized exterior in the dim light. It was no wonder he hated servers. If they weren't of the completely airheaded variety, they were ineffectual prima donnas who were "just passing through" the industry on their way to their promising careers in dental work or acting. Nick wasn't too concerned about the foul-ups; in the grand scheme of things, it didn't really matter - the customers were fine with the wait for replacements and left the restaurant happy, barring one asshole that made a big production of the affair. Maybe the chef would listen now when Nick asked for a second person on Friday nights. As he got out of his grimy uniform, Nick reflected that it was probably the night out yesterday that had rendered him incapable of being at the top of his game today; he also had a bad problem of worrying excessively when the reservation numbers shot up unexpectedly, which in turn effected his performance. In any event, the problems weren't all external, as he was the common denominator in the equation. He couldn't help his reactions though, so he shrugged off the matter, as it was in the past now. What to do? - this was the question plaguing Nick. He was tired, but he also wanted a drink to wind down. That was the other problem with working nights in the restaurant business: you couldn't relax after the shift for the life of you, no matter how tired you were going in and coming out. You were still so keyed up and adrenalized that you stayed awake for hours after. This might have played its part in Nick's and any industry worker's mutual decision to become borderline alcoholics. He also felt remarkably strange; he had in mind a weird premonition that he was going to meet his death that night, as though he were part of some old detective story, about to get caught in the crossfire of something that didn't concern him. No matter. Nick's overactive imagination often got the best of him. He was still somewhat afraid of the dark, for Christ's sake. He dismissed the feeling, and headed to a rather low-key bar down the street which didn't typically have an irritatingly high-volume turnout on the weekends. The beer was cold, and the one bartender that was usually on duty was a good sort of chap to converse with. He swung open the door, handed over his ID to the disinterested bouncer, and pulled up a stool at the bar to the serenade of some schmaltzy Top 40 ballad. The few customers who were there quietly chewing the fat over their pitchers were people Nick had never seen before, as was the bartender who opened two frigid bottles of cheap domestic at Nick's request. The bartender tried somewhat unsuccessfully to balance idle chatter with an unresponsive Nick alongside flirting with an older woman at the other end of the scratched counter who was very deep in her cups, but still resiliently opposed to the idea of heading home either with the bartender or alone. Nick downed the two beers in short order with a soundless laugh at the two of them, and mused that he would be much better off with a double rye and water. Nick despised scotch, but adored whisky - just not straight up. This drink was one of his favorites, as it made an ideal sipper. Besides, he was in no hurry to get anywhere. The beers soon kicked in alcoholically, and Nick started to relax; when the bartender asked him something trite, he now responded in an effort to make the conversation actually flow a bit. They chatted mainly about the trivial nothings that two strangers put into a position of forced socialization discuss, with no expectation of any lasting bond being forged. Sometimes, in situations such as this, it was all Nick could do not to scream in utter dejection at the pointlessness of it all. Tonight, he couldn't care less. In the midst of their banter, a woman sidled up to the bar three seats to the right of Nick and ordered herself a Caesar. She gave a short non-committal smile to him, which he did not return. As the golden line of his drink slowly descended beneath the level of the ice cubes, he intermittently thought about work tomorrow, and struggled to keep the conversation with the bartender going. The fellow was a bit of a slow one, and his jokes just weren't all that funny, but he was clearly as bored as everyone else there, and just marking time until last call. Nick scanned the bar again, looking for a way out of the dead-end conversation. He didn't feel like trying his luck on the girl who was sitting by herself around the other side of the bar. She had obviously come there with intent herself - she wasn't dressed to kill, but it was rare to see a woman of her apparent young age at a bar by her lonesome without a reason. After a few inviting glances thrown his way, Nick mustered the nerve to ask her how she was, silently cursing the fact that he hadn’t the social skills to play these games. "I'm good. Yourself?" Her voice was light, but the tone was rehearsed. "well, I can't complain, but even if I could, I wouldn't." It was answers like this that usually ended conversations for Nick, and this one was no different. He could see the evident confusion in the girl's eyes at his response to her advance, and she gave him that half-smile of polite dismissal that he was becoming all too familiar with. Looks like he wouldn't be settling just yet. Nick was content for now, but he would have to confront that problem at some point. Keeping up with the Joneses was a tiring task that he wanted to put off as long as he could, but the pressure kept building in his head. Sadly, he was the one putting most of the pressure on himself, despite Ryan’s badgering. He wished he could regain his youthful disregard for social convention and expectation, but having had to exist in the real world for some years now, that idealism had been molded into resignation. Remnants of it still cropped up in his thinking patterns now and then, but for the most part Nick was reconciled to his existence as it stood. He had his fun, and his stress, and his dog, and the comfort of the routine he'd carved for himself, but nothing of that existential peace with the world that he imagined the monks in Tibet possessed. Nick knew now from experience that he couldn't stop the flow of real life, regardless of the bad or good choices he had made and would make, and it was all he could do to hang on for the ride. As he said his farewells to the bartender, he stumbled accidentally into someone carrying a pitcher who himself wasn't paying attention; not too much beer was lost, and Nick offered to pay the guy he'd bumped, but the other man realized his own part in the accident, and told Nick not to worry about it. He thanked the man, silently appreciating him for not causing a scene Nick was in no mood for, and headed out into the night. As he said his farewells to the bartender, he stumbled accidentally into someone carrying a pitcher who himself wasn't paying attention; not too much beer was lost, and Nick offered to pay the guy he'd bumped, but the other man realized his own part in the accident, and told Nick not to worry about it. He thanked the man, silently appreciating him for not causing a scene Nick was in no mood for, and headed out into the night.

Arriving at home after a relatively painless cab ride through chaotic streets, he paid his fare, and fumbled with his keys to get his back door open. He wasn't drunk by any means, but what he had digested was enough to combine with the long day and put him out like a light when he sat on his old couch. He'd woken up there many times after a night out, and he was sure he would do so many more times in the future. Such was the life he lived. It was no longer a challenge for him to live like this, and he had accepted it into his habits unconsciously. Nick had what he needed, even though he didn't necessarily have what he wanted. That was enough. All he could hope for now was that he would wake up in time for work tomorrow, having neglected to set an alarm of any kind before passing out. - blaphbee -=- "Towards the end of the cycle" A glance that pierces all Searching for untouched flesh Cellars of despair Free figures find their course I closed my eyes for this sorrow But bitter escaped me not The shadow of loving Creates the spiritworld On the door of peace there's a raging sound Its the painful reality that rings again Arms are coming for me Cursed echo's dwell in the deep At night they crawl back to their homes Not aware of the spirit that roams He is the chosen will Seizing the inferior soul The lost hope that once triumphated Shall burn in the hearts of the dishonored A dying gift from below For the balance of the here and now. - ted oliekan -=- "An Exercise in Realizing One's Will (Growth)" An exhausted figure leers at the biting cold, slowly Sinter-sauntering along the dimly lit shores of misery How retchingly despairing an existence Whilst with only two eyes lachrymosely thee You weep for the world? Others? Or is it your self? Awkwardly embracing the three, though with honest effort Nonetheless curtailed by a fatuitously limited perspective; That each mind is an island in and of itself! How fortunate, then, that you have washed up onto these shores Wrought with agony—as stark contrast from my domain... Shown the image of a churning tempest, the unconscious macrocosm Where your two eyes go unacknowledged—but look forever outward! "This is truth." I spoke. You struggled with those words... That we should surface only to submerge once more! A loss, a tear, soon enough forgotten. Or would you rather not admit to the death of your name amidst such depravity? Desperation upon your lips; thirsting for immortality. You who killed the gods. You who killed your own ideals—or perhaps you'd rather have it remembered this way: That you guided the hand which destroyed your sense of wonder and anticipation. Never lifting your gaze from the dust in which you kneel trembling. Forgiveness comes only from those who bear compassion for those who've erred, And I am not inclined to do as those who recall the spirit of the men of the cloth. The task is laid before you; heed these words of mine: there is honor to be reclaimed. Yet in an age where such a mind is reproached from below, a greater duty still: Remonstration through force, replace the foundations whereupon such ideals may grow... - faustian dreams [ exponentiation ] Issue [3.0]/July 2nd, 2006 Published Quarterly by the Center for Nihilism and Nihilist Studies http://www.nihil.org/ With assistance from The American Nihilist Underground Society http://www.anus.com/ Editors: Blaphbee and Phantasm Writers: No Fun Alexis Smog vijay prozak Fieldmouse unzeitgeist frostwood ted oliekan "When a place gets crowded enough to require IDs, social collapse is not far away. It is time to go elsewhere. The best thing about space travel is that it made it possible to go elsewhere." -- R.A. Heinlein, Time Enough For Love [EOF]