{begin} INTEGRAL.FUNCTIONS.010 dd/mm/yy = 31/05/96 {=========================================================================} ~|~ |~| ~|~ |~~ |~~ |~| |~| | | | | | | | . | | | | | | | | | |~ | | |~, |~| | _|_ | | | |__ |_| | | | | |__ |~~ | | |~| |~~ ~|~ ~|~ |~| |~| |~~ | | | | | | | | | | | | | |~ | | | | | | | | | | | `~| | |_| | | |__ | _|_ |_| | | __| {=========================================================================} {get FILE_ID.DIZ} Integral Functions is a bi-weekly electronic 'zine that encourages both stylistic and topical experimentation in all possible forms of literary self-expression. {get NET_SITE.NFO} Issues will be available on the FTP site approximately one month after their release. Please read the instructions on the site to be sure that you download and uncompress the files correctly. FTP: ftp.etext.org /pub/Zines/IntegralFunctions Gopher: gopher.etext.org Zines/IntegralFunctions If you are having trouble connecting, this site also has two alternate addresses: etext.archive.umich.edu OR locust.cic.net {=========================================================================} {get CONTENTS.LST} 00000001 "?" - Literary-Somethings-Collection 00000010 Patient: Angela Dreamblur 00000011 Socko 00000100 Mental Abuse -> Curtis Yateman 00000101 'creative accounting' and other notes 00000110 I-C 00000111 Quadratic Banarama 00001000 "Graveyard School" - [Text Scrap] 00001001 Gideon Hartwell - May 29, 1996 00001010 ramblerambleramble: #0034 00001011 Copyright Information {=========================================================================} "?" - Literary-Somethings-Collection ------------------------------------ (From ?) scout a fertile planting ground plump curvature collection warmth emitting soil looks fit to bear the growth want to get inside, see what interior find dance in the garden seeding maybe leave behind --- "flower baby" raised and reared in great green garden under your statural supervision we spit on your photosynthetic chlourofilled rootissues you dulled decay daddylion we want more sunmunch and rotfeed --- aching conflictions(ore) pumping pumping the tensions are liquified -- liquidated converted into another state to be secreted in secret pumping pumping euphoric purgance(quirt) --- i once fell lingering hungry soil haunt for a foot yes he toasted like a crid also i sped her route they hurt continue stop --- ( see ... initiating ) the entity in entirety enters SENSATIVITY MODE an organism self-configured to; ( ingest .. process ... respond ) or ( create .. send .. recieve ) prepared to fasten form a cycle the liaison loop --- "electrical burn" it smelt of unpleasants an acrid nostril tickler reminding of wet earth and burnt hair convinced myself that it was spring water (nearby) and convinced myself that I didn't see the smoke convenient ignorance (artificial) as it melted --- they open for my eyes (insides) bright white showed on display "see?" peace (filled) luminant escence "we bear no hostility" telling of tensions not existant communicate I can extract love {=========================================================================} Patient: Angela Dreamblur (July 9th, 1995) History: seems to have had negative relationship with both mother and father (physical abuse? -- possible, psychological -- very probable) few friends, doesn't seem to have had any close ones also seems to have had many social problems began to show signs negative-deviancy at about the beginning of high school (parents didn't want to take action right away -- were unsure) no drug abuse reported, but seems possible Notes: constant incoherent rambling, giggles occasionally (finds scenes of death and disfigurement quite humourous), frequently talks of radio waves (supposedly she recieves them and is unable to turn them off, has mentioned messages, a few of which were requests to commit violent acts -- often complains about 'the damneded oldy station!' -- and has expressed a desire to 'kill all them rotted folks' ['oldy station'] ), obsession with hair (constantly combs, attacks if others touch it -- claims that it was a gift from an angel and that it's position affects her reception), very odd manner of walking Diagnosis: undifferentiated-type schizophrenic (appears to be in total disorganization -- speech, perception, emotion, motor operations) -- but also expresses some paranoia and enters very brief catatonic periods on occasion) GAF level 25, Stressors level not known, No known physical symptoms Recommendation: confinement to Fixx Hospital for indefinate time period subject appears to be a potential danger to others treatment and further study is required Dr. Wavery {=========================================================================} "Socko" (Socko) It brings a tear to my eye. It brings a bite to my biscuit. It makes my toad jump for joy. It makes my trick begin to suck. It makes my lizard leap. It makes my treat eat. It makes my eyes change size. It copulates my component. It makes my mind boggle. It makes my puddle paddle. It makes my head turn to lead. It makes my spot rot. {=========================================================================} Mental Abuse -> Curtis Yateman ====><==== KEEp me inclined to a world of messing things up, strap me to myself and let me feel how bad I really am. I know that someday, maybe, I will make a difference, somehow, in somebody's life. ====><==== Who am I kidding? Receeding. ====><==== The line here is very bright. I like to absorb the light, yet I feel I am taking something. Jesus ====><==== I am feeling redundant. The doctor says I am activating repressed feelings. I dont feel anything anymore. Except redundantcy. ====><==== FIN {=========================================================================} 'creative accounting' and other notes ------------------------------------- the following text is transcribed (many grammar and spelling errors have been kept for 'realism'[?]) directly from my notebooks and journals for this month. i have decided to try this (sharing my journals) after reading allen ginsberg's published journals (early fifties early sixties). whether it is of any use (either as knowledge or entertainment) to anyone is... me not caring if it is or not. signed, gh [may 1996] ** urges ** recently, i've had no urge to write. actually: i've had constant URGES to write, but, i have been unable to do so. i suppose this is some sort of 'creative block' or something. my lack of belief in 'inspiration' hasn't hindered me in the past, and why should it? i mean, i don't wait for ideas to come to me. i usually force them, with adequate success, with the aid of bisociative and polysociative thinking. anyway. i have resorted to writing about not being able to write. i'll go back and observe my own atrophy. journal entry - may 13, 1996 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - my american experiment of future gun faith (polished) touch this tall sensual wonder shape secret brain drift soul echo through these canadian garden town machine sound interruption eruption conduction con form * * * beethoven's 9th we will listen to, whether i like it or not, (which i do). * * * separate notebook entry ("creative accounting") - may 11, 1996 media conversion: - - - - - - - - - - collaboration of two or more artists (of different mediums)? - or, solo interpretation examples (of solo intrp.): a musician writing a song based on a painting; a novelist writing a book based on a poem. not uncommon. a concept is often triggered by the work of another creative person ('inspiration'). a concept can also be triggered by either personal or natural phenomenon (ex: death of a friend, watching the sun rise). creativity and introversion: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - visual/musical/lyrical communication (indirect) as a replacement for direct communication. through a creative form of creation, such as a painting or poem, the person can communicate as much or as little as he/she wants, allowing for total control over what is revealed about himself or herself. bisociation: the joining of two completely unrelated concepts or images, forming an original idea. also: polysociation (multiple concepts). art is a voluntary activity. * * * "creative accounting" - may 14, 1996 hans richter (speaking of dada): "our feeling of freedom from rules, precepts, money and critical praise, a freedom for which we paid the price of an excessive distaste and contempt for the public, was a major stimulus. the freedom...brought us closer to the source of all art, the voice within ourselves. the absence of any ulterior motive enabled us to listen to the voice of the 'unknown', and to draw knowledge from the unknown." chance = inspiration in the form of free association? polysociation - sounds - visions - words, semantics (sounds) kurt rowland: "this initially destructive movement, the anti-art, therefore led to new methods of exploring the human mind." (phonetic poetry) (rhymes + sounds - association) richter: "the realization that reason and anti-reason, sense and nonsense, design and chance, consciousness and unconsciousness, belong together as necessary parts of a whole." dictionary: integral - 1. being an indispensable part of a whole; essential; constituent. 2. formed of parts that together constitute a unity; entire; complete. * * * "creative accounting" - may 14, 1996 polished garbage blooming dream father slurred mind 'window' then mine mottloy dramping hamagrar shontist flounk experimental chrome erection and through vanishing this beautiful beat (king) EXCREMENT country stone boat runner singing in german (in a russian cabaret) with a french accent. GLOBAL OVARIES! do tell * * * "creative accounting" - may 15, 1996 WHAT DOES SOUND LOOK LIKE? - smell, feel, taste? FEEL: physical effects of sound on the human body? government experiments, sound = weapon sound = pleasure (on body; mind) CONDITIONING (pavlov?): associations...the same way that hearing a name ('greg' for example) automatically causes one to associate a personality trait(s) with that person, based on relationships with persons with the same name, television or movie characters, etc. example: i suffered from car/motion sickness as a child (and still do, occasionally) - my family drove down to florida (from canada) one summer in the 1980s, with my parents listening to various country music stations on the radio for the entire journey. as a result of this (the combination of motion sickness and country music), i have been conditioned so that whenever i hear country music, i feel nausea. this is similar to what happened to alex in 'a clockwork orange' by anthony burgess. * * * notes from 'the dynamics of creation' by anthony storr - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - art is voluntary play is voluntary not associated with desires and wants. although art and play (sports, etc.) can be turned into a career, they do not start this way - at the moment someone decides to pursue art as a career, something happens - art no longer becomes voluntary - art becomes a PRODUCT necessary for survival. * * * a career producing artwork (as well as literature, poetry, music...) is not any better than a career as an accountant: an accountant can devote his life and should to his work as an artist would to painting (for example), although an artist would not be able to understand how someone could be passionate about accounting (and vice versa), accounting is art...but in a different way. CREATIVE ACCOUNTING with david humdrum (accountant) who says accounting has no SOUL? same with religion etc? passion <> enthusiasm * * * in reading 'the dynamics of creation' by anthony storr, i have come to a number of realizations. in chapter seventeen ('the quest for identity'), storr discusses in creation: 'works of art bear so strong a stamp of individuality that they are often easily identifiable as being the work of a particular individual.' (p. 300) storr also points out that creative people usually do not notice an individual 'style' (if it can be called that - it is much more complex i think) in their own work. i suppose i have known this for a few years, but never really thought about it clearly. it is so difficult to escape ones individual style in which one does things: the way you walk, body language, handwriting, drawing, driving, painting, etc. one can easily identify a poem by e.e. cummings, a song by led zeppelin, etc., and yet it is difficult to recognize and acknowledge the style of the self. quoting anthony storr again: 'looking back over years of work, a man may often be astonished to find the scarlet thread of his identity running through a series of works which appeared to him very different at the time they were conceived. he will also often find that ideas which appeared to have occurred to him only yesterday were in fact implicit in earlier work, and had obvious precursors which had escaped his notice. in fact, creative people are often much more continuous beings than they think.' (i don't like that term - 'creative people' it's like saying 'schizoid people' or something, a definition, when things are so much more complex.) storr: '...[the] lack of continual reinforcement [of the creative person's sense of his own identity] may be another part of the reason that the creative person's work is essentially solitary. moreover, creative people learn, often through bitter experience, to be secretive.' * * * personal notes from 'creative accounting' - may 16, 1996 similarities between scientists and artists: - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - both try to change the way people look at/perceive things - new discoveries in art or science cause revolutions in global thought - both consist of a large amount of experimentation, and leaps of faith - both artists and scientists are generally stereotyped as eccentrics or 'freaks' (this can be true in some cases) - both tend to be dedicated and genuinely interested in what they do, and enjoy doing it - the subjects of science and art tend to remain obscure or vague to the general public * * * may 20, 1996 bird in flight = death of flower visual haiku? dynamic/static shapes of polygon polly gone like a photograph a video on pause summary of universe blurred. hummingbirds and insects incest insex children draw stars quantum butterfly. * * * sometimes i think that either there is no true art, or that EVERYTHING is art. art = creation of 'things'. creation: a painting, a song, dance, a sculpture, a story, a shopping list, a small cluster of toe-nail clippings in the corner of the bathroom, etc. how does anyone claim that one of these is art and another isn't - or that one form of 'art' is superior or more valid than another? does it matter if creation is a conscious action or a 'happy accident'? this is all VERY stupid. (she said, as...) * * * may 21, 1996 - notes from: 'a history of the modern movement art architecture design' by kurt rowland - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - notes on paul klee: to klee, changing, transforming shapes were the essence of an experience of modern life. he believed that art can no longer confine itself to description, or even analysis, of superficial forms. it must concern itself with experience which is always changing - art is 'the prehistory of the visible'. klee: 'perhaps you may through [the study of] nature arrive at the point where you can create your own...then one day you yourself may be a part of nature; you will be able to create as she does.' art to klee was not an extension of nature, but an analogy of nature. the work of art was an organism of its own, parallel to nature but not a part of it, 'an imitation of the forces of nature, as a child imitates adults.' * * * may 21, 1996: 'further notes on the conversion of expressive mediums:' (personal notes) - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - (simile of expression?) question: does an expressive piece, when scaled down to its most basic/minimal form, have an equivalent in any other medium(s) of expression? into how many other mediums can the piece be successfully converted/transferred with loss of impact? example/experiment: say we have a painting of a primary red circle, 6" in diameter (like a miniature japanese flag, without any meaning). how can we successfully convert this red circle into the medium of sound/music? what does a red circle (6") sound like? what characteristics of the circle are transferred into music - as in what is their equivalent? -- ex: - diameter of circle = volume of sound; - infinite and constant perimeter of the circle might represent a constant note or pitch, with infinite duration, or, if it was electronic music, a looped sound; - the colour of the circle might represent what instrument is to be used. also, what is the difference between the sound of a red circle and a red square? what if the circle were blue? what does an octagon sound like? what about a 3-dimensional object (ex: tetrahedron)? how could the red circle be converted into the medium of dance? how can the human body express the red circle through movement? what if we converted the red circle into literary expression? would the expression be literal, or expressed with deep emotion in poetry, using metaphors? perhaps such a minimal visual object could be best expressed in literary form through haiku poetry? * * * moon = time * * * may 22, 1996 poem: oh, like,yeah and,umm [cough] heh, exactly! i'm with you all the way[sniff] uhh...yeah. so, umm, i'll be right over. ok? yeah, yup. ok. ok bye. did you uhh, [sneeze] or whatever? or something and, like,yeah - stuff like that. hehuh.. yup,yup. right-o! [cough] * * * may 25, 1996 poem: it is as if it is as if someone else wrote this hands do not remember what words they formed the day before it is as if eyes reassure the mind it is as if it is 'indeed.' 'oh.' is it * * * scribbling on page - may 27, 1996 i don't care i want to make thing s that make people sigh beauty is free what is it though beauty i mean are we birds exist on a 5th dimension why is a song 'nice' what causes melting why do we collect why aren't we animals what is tradegy why is violence entertaining did freud have a clue or was he mental too why did that last sentence rhyme don't want answers but it is nice to ask now and then and why do we love the water is it where we came from where did the winter go so soon come back * * * 'decline of quality - or whatever' ("creative accounting) - may 27, 1996 ENTROPY should i come to some sort of conclusion based on what i have written here? not now - not while i am so apathetic. i've had no urge to draw, paint, write, or whatever in the past few days, what i have done was forced, unsatisfactory. i feel like looking at picture books all day - becoming a sponge - hire someone to turn the pages and refill various beverages then suddenly a big thing happens and stuff. or whatever. 'catch!' . o 'ok!' \ . / O . \O/ /\/ | | /^\ /^\ _ it would be nice to visit a world of stick figures - a world designed by children (with crayons). * * * * * * * * * * {=========================================================================} "I-C" (anonymous) ice cream iced cream.. icicled cream One day I ate so much ice cream, that my body overfilled and so ice cream began to trickle out of my nose.. down my chin.. my chest.. my legs.. to my toes and from my ears, it trickled too.. my nose, my pores.. ice cream it kept tasteing good.. I kept eating more pressure building.. more entering in than leaving out.. a rumble.. a gurgle my eyes shot out of the sockets in an icey cream fountain my nose widened to become a cold cream faucet but I continued to force more into myself I eventually just collapsed into a quivering puddle of flesh and cream melted ice cream not iced anymore {=========================================================================} "Quadratic Banarama" 01 (By Leo X-594) 0is1 0like0 1varia1 0blepro0 0duction1 1formulao0 0rvectorfa0 0ctortenor0 0rootarcha1 1eologythe0 1sequenced0 0oesn'tmat1 0terasthed0 1efinition0 0isinterc0 0hangeabl1 0eliketh0 0eequat0 1ionis0 0anyw1 0ay0 10 {=========================================================================} "Graveyard School" - [Text Scrap] ````````````````````````````````` "TB" & "comsumption" = Turberculosis Glassey-eyed and sad with consumption, they [artists] started the "graveyard school of poetry". .. . . "youth grows pale, and spectre thin, and dies." The graveyard school drew some fantastic deductions about TB. Its members added up all the rattling "lungers" in their midsts and concluded that Turberculosis had something to do with genius. The link between intellect and TB became so strong that even health writers such as [-] pretended to be frail in order to look tragically hip. [-], who peopled his novels with consumptives, didn't care much for the fad but new "it was the fashion to suffer from the lungs" and "to spit blood after each emotion that was sensational".. . . . . . "render the delicacies, the exquisite melancholies, the rare and delicious phantasies, of the vibrant cord of the heart and soul." In this unhealthy environment, peer pressure among the artists to get sick or die of TB was intense. In the 1800s, most writers and composers of any merit seemed to be coughing their way to fame and an early grave. {=========================================================================} Gideon Hartwell - May 29, 1996 ------------------------------ ONE. trees fragment the sun on this road windows rush through our heads all blood ----- {=========================================================================} ramblerambleramble: #0034 (anonymous contribution) the human species is clearly dominant in it's environment (the planet).. dominant because humans are so muchly better equipped to deal with so many things.. what they lack, they make up for with their technological exten- sions (inventions -- the makers and the controllers).. but could it be that they are too well equipped? too fit to survive? so as to go beyond the point of survival, and to inevitably gradualize towards extinction.. that is to say that perhaps the human species, although it shot out far ahead of the other species' with it's mental abilities and technological products in the past ( -> present), will likely destroy itself -- and possibly it's environment (they've certainly already damaged it) -- in the process of surviving so WELL ! {=========================================================================} {get COPYRITE.NFO} Each work within this volume is copyright 1996, by its respective author. 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