iXHS - information express by helter skelter 2:15am 06/28/96 'no funky ascii. no funky words. just information' issue 1 about school by shot gun *** disclamer - excuse bad grammar and spelling mistakes, i need to get this pak out tonight. :) For every 5 days a week, I attend school. From 9am to 3pm. School - n. institute for educating children or giving instruction. But, that's not the case with me. All I do in school is put up with morons who can't think for themselves. I have to sit back and listen to their 'Uh.. I dunno..' and their whinings about how school sucks. Yeah, school sucks, but they say it sucks because TV tells them it does. I say it sucks for a dif- ferent reason - I don't learn anything; I have to wait for the others to catch up. This may sound pretencious, but what's so pretencious about truth? *** There are others like me in this situation - we sit in school, aggravated, trying to keep sane and not schooting everybody in the facility. Constant annoyances keep poking at my brain. Learn - v.t. to gain knowledge of or skill in. No, that does not apply with me. I want to learn something, but I have to wait. And I have to teach myself, but I have questions and when I present them, the teacher is usually busy or just can't answer the question. I hate feeling like I'm getting stupider everyday because I have to sit back and wait for the morons to catch up, knowing full-well they won't catch up. Progressing in school for me is more-or-less an oxymoron. I don't learn any- thing, not just for the reason of everyone else is just not as intelligent, but also because I can't concentrate. There's so much noise and the like, that I can't help, but get pissed off. At this very moment, people behind me are talking about what their complexion is and not paying attention to what they were assigned to do. In 30 years, these people will be running the country and will be the citizens; it'll be hell. It will be hell. I am already anti-social enough and people dare ask me why. Use your head, can you blame me for being this way? There's no thought required in what you're going to wear tommorow. Why does it seem like people don't need to use their brain? What are they going to do when they realize everything that they talk about will not apply when they go out and try to make a living for themselves. Sure, I guess they shouldn't care now, but they have to learn some responsibily. I admit, I get like this sometimes, but I keep it to a minimum. Unlike some of the others who just don't care. We are going downhill socially and now this downhill direction is doubling in speed. Maybe I'm just being paranoid and an asshole, but I believe what I say. This doesn't go for all the people in my class/school but most fit into this category. Always, the biggest concern is what to look like tommorow. Sure, I may wear drab clothes, but I like them. I don't care for wearing the over-priced fashions. They'll just go out of 'style' anyway :P. I've always wondered why people want to fit into the 'crowd'. I mean, what's the point? Why strive so hard to become 'cool' when it won't lead you anywhere. Fads are alwasy a problem. Wearing 'No Fear' shirts and writing 'Adidas' on your backpack doesn't make you any more of a person than you are. It doesn't make you better or give you power. Maybe it's a self-esteem thing. If you wear these things you'll be 'accpeted'. So what? Who cares about being accepted. If everyone would just be themselves, it would be a much better world. People are so scared of disagreeing with the 'in-crowd'. I wonder why. I hate the 'in-crowd'. I hate what it stands for - television and 90210. Damn it's agravating to hear 'Duh, Adidas is better than Nike.' or something equally as stupid. Maybe I hate too much. Maybe I can't accept this. Well, I can't accept it. It's just all too fake. Everyone around me thinks they know what they are talking about. I tell them I am a martial artist and kickboxer. And suddenly I get respect. Why? Television makes it so much better than it really is. Martial arts, etc. isn't a big thing. All you have to do is join some local club and you can consider yourself a martial artist. Frustration. I don't want my world to collapse into a heaping pile of dogshit - bad analogy but you get my, err, drift. All in all, I don't do much in school but listen to lectures and get angry at idiots. Strive to be the same - motto for Generation X. end file.