Low Self Esteem Issue 13 Spontaneous Rantings I Written By: Aphex Twin Dec. 05th, 1996 [*] LSE NEWS [*] First Of All, I'd Like To Say That You Can Find Issues Of Low Self Esteem On The Following FTP Site: FTP://FTP.EText.Org/pub/Zines/LowSelfEsteem, Thanks To The Operators Of The EText Archives For Giving This T-File Collection A Home. You May Also Request An Issue By Writing EMail To Me At The Following Address: PARKER_LEWIS@HOTMAIL.COM, You May Send Me Mail Concerning Comments, Flames, Or If You Want To Write Something For Low Self Esteem. Hey welcome back to another issue of the worlds best shittiest text files "Low Self Esteem" where it's ok to feel like shit. In this issue, I just fired up EDIT and typed whatever passed through my mind. I have nothing else to say, so, bye... Leave me alone Stop controling me Stop judging me Stop evaluating me Stop trying to create my future Let me be free I don't want to be a part of your world I want to sleep forever I want to be in an eternal coma I want to be able to escape Escape this physical world Escape this controled world I don't want to live by your rules I don't want to be your puppet I want to break the routine I don't want to follow no one I want to walk alone To be alone with my thoughts My dreams I want to live in a dream world To escape physical reality In my dream world I am imortal In my dream world I follow my own path In my dream world I am not controled In my dream world I am free of obligations, worrys and sadness I prefer to walk alone True enlightment is spiritual True enlightment is being one with yourself 'Freedom' is a meaningless word in the physical world In this physical world we can never be truely free We are always controled by someone Freedom can not be achived Because people are dependent on materialistic possessions And social recognision If you are dependent, you are not free I don't want to be dependent on no one Man has grown too dependent on society Man has grown too dependent on others Man has grown weak Unable to survive without others Man has become imperfect Man will never become perfect Unless he becomes independent Not depending on others Taking control And not being controled Not worrying about being accepted or recognised I want to be alone Seperate myself from the others Seperate myself from society Seperate myself from everything To be a lone spark travelling through a neverending dark void Having nothing and desiring nothing Except to be alone Alone with my thoughts, my imagination and my dreams In my dreamworld Im my dreamword, words like :rich, poor, smart, dumb, beautiful and ugly Don't exists These words are used in the physical world to judge people And place them in categories In my dreamworld I am alone In my dreamworld I'm not judged In my dreamworld I am truely free... -- Aphex Twin