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But it is even better with Relish!@ HA HA HA. Alright already, I finally realized something. That lame abstract humor cheese (notice a re-occurring food motif?) really does suck. The sad part is that I literally filled the last issue with it. I guess I was just bored & had nothing to write about, or so I thought. I've been pretty busy during the past month, & I think that I have at least _learned_ something from each & every little trial and tribulation that I experienced. The main thing that happened was that I graduated from High School. Big deal you say? Well, it sorta is. Despite the obvious, adult mumbo-jumbo about the "moving on" that you experience, I felt some other strange stuff that I don't get the opportunity to partake in too frequently. I actually finished something that I hated. I have to be one of the biggest procrastinators that I know. If I'm not all fired up & ready to do it, I just don't. I was never really too fired up about going to High School, the only time I actually looked forward to going was when there was a girl that I wanted to see, or it was Friday or something like that. Also despite what you may think, I did actually grow from the whole graduation experience. So what's next? College seems first on the docket. Mainly because of my 'Zine experiences, I have decided to major in Print Journalism. I hope I will have time to write Relish, go to class, debate & sleep. I guess I don't really need to sleep. I think I'm going to minor in Political Science, & maybe set myself up for a job out of college writing political commentary or speech-writing or something. Who knows who, what or where I will be in four years. But for now, I am sitting here, eating chips with guacamole & I have to go to the bathroom really bad. I really wouldn't say I'm altogether happy here, I am content, waiting. On the brink of a whole new world, kind of in limbo. Once again, I digress. Back to my original point, I tried to put stuff in this issue that actually meant something, or had the intention thereof. I deemed myself a failure at the cheese humor, so I decided to return to a formula that has worked for me, & I think still works for me. & I did attempt to keep the angst to a minimum, lest I typecast myself. I wasn't lying to you, though. I really do have to go to the bathroom, but for now, I'll hold it. I guess it's for the greater good. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- . g&$. $$$$ $$$""$&s g&$" `YP' $$$ d$$" $$$ $$$ "$$$ $$$ ggg "Y$g$P" ===== $$$ $$$ $$$ d$P"Y$$ ===== $$$ $$$ $$$ $$$ "$$b "Y$$ $$$mm$P" $$Y" $$$ "Yb index dY" "" "" -(##)-|----(title)---------------------|---(author)--- o1 | tMM's Editorial | tMM o2 | Index | tMM o3 | Relish News | tMM o4 | Desolation Row | tMM o5 | Dear Brotherly Vampyre Dudes | Belial o6 | Recollection & Realization | Ideal o7 | Don't Ask Why | tMM o8 | I Hate Green Sauce | Juke o9 | Abstraction | tMM 10 | Benediction | Shadow Tao 11 | Closing | tMM ------|--------------------------------|--------------- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Relish News" % by tMM Hola, boys and girls, thanks for coming to the show today. We have a good issue planned for you, so sit back, relax, open up a nice warm bag of popcorn and enjoy the show. Or not. Not too much has happened to Relish itself over the past month between Issue three and Issue four. Alright, alright, I know I'm late, but not by a month this time, just a week! The Relish Web site, FTP site and E-mail is all still the same, see the bottom of the file for more details. ----- Much to my pleasure, I received a whole lump o' submissions for this issue, I'd like to thank and recognize Shadow Tao, Ideal, Belial, and Juke for submissions to this issue. To further whet your appetites, already on the black-board for Issue five is Edicius and Oodles, so stay tuned. Due to the increase in submissions & my wish to keep each issue around 34-40 K, I found that I didn't have to write quite as much. But it is for a reason, quality, not quantity. Uhm, yeah, that's it. Anyways, I have a better feeling about this issue than I did about Issue three, so hopefully that instinct is somewhat correct & Issue four will bring me fame and riches. Well, riches will do. For now. Enjoy, & don't hesitate to leave feedback, I don't mind hate mail or fan mail, I'm really quite open to criticism. So don't be bashful!@ ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Desolation Row" % by tMM "What's wrong?" said the obviously concerned young female, "Why are you sulking in the corner of the couch, why won't you cuddle?" "I'm not sulking, I'm thinking. We need to talk." replied the over-angstful, male, teenage protagonist. "You're right, a lot is happening. You are jeopardizing your friendship with one of your best friends, & for what?" questioned the beautiful young woman. "Well, I guess we really need to define what we actually are. We've been on one date, & I don't want to rush into a situation that I don't want to be in." lied the average teenager. "You're right, to be completely honest, I'm really not looking for another boyfriend, I just ended a relationship & I want to be a little more free to roam, in this last summer before college." observed the brilliant girl. "Same for me, & on that note, I don't want anything serious right before I leave. I don't really want to fall in love & have it wrested away from me by something so stupid as distance." said the hurting eighteen year old. "Good, I guess it's easier just being a little less than a couple. It takes the pressure off of things. Are you feeling better now that we talked about this?" cooed the most magnificent creature that had ever befallen a lonely teenage geek like him. "Yep, much better!" he fibbed. "Do you want to watch the rest of this movie now?" asked the girl. "Well, I do need to get goi--" & his reply was cut short by a passionate kiss from this girl that he cared so much for. ------ God, why did I lie through my teeth to her? I told her exactly what she wanted to hear. I told her what would give me the opportunity to be closer to her, to gain her trust, to find her love. I cannot be feeling this. I shouldn't be, I am going to get hurt. She doesn't want what I'm feeling, she wants to just date, with no strings attached. Why can't I be content with that? But I cannot stop what I feel. It is a snowball effect, a veritable slippery-slope of affection. Does she feel the same? Is she hiding it like me? ------ At that instant the two lovers pulled their lips apart, startled by the fact that the movie was already a third over with. Hadn't they just turned it on after their talk? The two didn't stare at each other, they didn't lapse into an uncomfortable silence. They simply sat there, faces about a centimeter apart, eyes closed & felt each other's warm breath upon their faces. After the long and beautiful silence, he dared to sneak a peek. To his surprise, she had a half-smile on her face coupled with an expression of sheer happiness, contentment, & passion. He didn't get to study her face long, because after a few joyous seconds, she peaked too. He closed his eyes & sighed, thoroughly enjoying the thought of her studying his face. After awhile, he peeked again. She was gazing into his eyes. She enveloped him in another passionate kiss & filled him down to the core with utter rapture. He began to think about her again, & the same thoughts seemed to bounce around on the inside of his head. Startling him, she pulled back abruptly. "I can feel your heartbeat." she whispered, smiling in an approving & loving smile. He looked into her eyes & looked down. He let out a wistful sigh & moved his gaze back up to her beautiful face. "What was that?" she asked, with a wry & questioning grin on her face. "I don't know, sometimes I just feel so much of something, but I say the opposite. I feel like there has to be more to this than just friends that mess around." he pontificated. She kissed him again & hugged him. To his surprise she moved her kiss backward toward his ear & whispered "Me too." ------ He stayed for two more hours, talking, smooching, & more. For those three brief hours, he had totally lost himself in her. He had given himself to his feelings & as an affirmative response, she did the same. What they did was something that two lovers do. Something special, shared between people that burst with feeling about each other. He left feeling loved, affirmed, accepted & satisfied. He craved physical affection, & every time he started hungering again, she responded like she knew, like she felt the same. They were one that night, bound in ecstasy, nothing could take that away from them, or change that. He loved her. ------ The next night, with him at the same party, she had sex with one of his best friends, also her ex-boyfriend. Things change quickly. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Dear Brotherly Vampyre Dudes" % by Belial Dear Brotherly Vampyre Dudes, I'm a teenager in Keyport, can you please send me information about your club. I think it'd be real cool if I can suck the blood of my friends. I'm tired of having no identity. The only way I'll ever be an individual non-conformist is by becoming a vampire. But I have one question! When I join, do I get to learn the secret vampire handshake and when will my supernatural skills begin to work? Gothically yours, Belial P.S. I loved Interview With the Vampire! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Recollection & Realization" % by ideal (This is a work of fiction based on something all too real) "Hey, I'm just going to drive around tonight. I don't feel like doing anything." "Man, why do you do that stuff?" "What stuff?" "Why do you just go off by yourself?" "You wouldn't understand. It's a personal thing." I knew it was true too. He wouldn't understand it. My friends never understood much of anything that had to do with me. But he was my best friend. Shouldn't _he_ be able to understand? No. He had shown me that before. I slowly inserted the key into the door of my rusted car. Everything started to move in slow motion as I fell into another one of my thinking spells. Thinking captivated me so much that it pushed the importance of time out of my existence. It's always the same thing. I start to think & run the past through my mind & that's when everything starts to crawl. "What's on the agenda tonight?" my mind seemed to ask me. It was almost sarcastic...as if my own thoughts were mocking each other. I don't blame them. After all, I create them & I've never really attempted to give them much variety. It was always a thought of sadness, anger, or deep philosophical questioning. Strangely enough, it was never regret. Heh, maybe if i would create a thought of regret, that would give the rest of them a jolt of excitement. Hmm...not tonight. No, tonight I was going to take a long drive through the city & run my friend's cowardly & deceptive decision through my head. I slowly started to turn the key now that it was deeply embedded in the lock. I could feel the tiny, intricate mechanisms within my driver's side door initiate their purpose. It occurred to me at that moment that those mechanisms were now more successful at life than I was. They had a purpose. All i have are thoughts. ------ Returning my direct attention to my cranium, I could see, feel, & hear the moment that was previously mentioned as if it were happening right then & there. The conversation echoed in my head & increased it's booming volume, almost causing involuntary muscle spasms in my head. The dialogue went something like this... "You're really a drag lately" he explained to me "You're so caught up with Katie. Your love for her is driving me nuts. You just swim in your pool of self pity & sadness. What the hell are we supposed to do? Just sit around & get bored like you? Hell, even when she's with us, you're messed up! You disregard us & pay attention to her & only her!" At that point, I remember myself trying to break in with a response, but I also remember thinking about how right he was while, at the same time, being so wrong. So, instead of explaining, I remember just sitting there sorting out the truths that were floating around in my mind along with the truths that were making their grand entrance to my ear. My friend continued his verbal manifesto of the mind... "We're just kind of sick of being put on the backburner. So that's the main reason that we lied to you. You just need to get over your depression over her! The sooner you do that, the sooner you will be happy & the sooner you can hang with us again. I mean look, when something bad happens to me, I get angry for a day or so...but then I'm over it. Is she really worth it? You thought you loved Kim, look how that turned out. Your relationship with her lasted such a short time. This time, you barely even talk to Katie & you have no relationship with her. Why get so bent out of shape? Hey, I gotta go, talk you you later bud." That last word, "BUD" just played through my head over & over again like the end of the Beatle's 'Sgt. Pepper' album. The word also changed it's tone. First it was spoken in a goodbye tone but then after about four hundred repetitions, it blended into a question. "Bud. BUD. BUD! BUD?" Then, I was saying it to myself. "Bud?" I thought. "Isn't that a derivative of friend? Aren't friends supposed to accept you for what you are?" I thought out loud. I had always thought that being a friend took effort. Maybe I never had any true friends. Now that I look at it, I've put up with a lot of shit. I brushed it all off though. Never once did I say anything about my friend who steals from me because he is a kleptomaniac. Peter was, at times, extremely annoying but I didn't care. Mike's hypocrisy drives me nuts but the closest I came to retaliation was my silence. ------ The car door was open now. I could see my friend turning around to walk to his car. I slowly eased into the driver's seat as the thoughts condensed into a heavy mist around my head. ------ I reached a point of self realization in the days that followed that conversation. I realized that I was very hard to understand at times. My general fits of sporadic depression could very well seem to be about Katie when, in truth, the only time I had thought about her in the last month was when it was her turn to bowl. I sure as hell wasn't in love with her. Just interested. I had a desire to get to know her better, but now, my decision has changed because of her interest in Peter. I remember my concrete decision to change myself for the benefit of my friends. The moods inside of me voluntarily changed & my apathy towards Katie slowly increased. I thought that my change in moods would bring them back. Why was so much effort involved? Why did I have to complete all of the complex chapters of life. I knew full well that there were others like me out there. A whole gander of others. But I still felt extremely alone & empty. Feelings of betrayal, insolence, & even regret started to flutter through my system. Regretful of what? Of being myself? Of boring & hurting others? I'm not sure. It was just general regret I suppose. Or maybe never feeling deep regret previous to this day made it difficult for me to interpret it. All I knew was that I wanted my friends back...I wanted to change, & I wanted to be understood. The latter would be extremely difficult on account of my extreme & obscure symbolism, but I was hoping that the first two goals would be a bit easier. ------ With the key turned, the engine of my car climaxed to a steady hum of mechanical life. Slowly, I found myself driving off, onto the old main street. All the time, I was thinking of somehow..someway..to correct things. Should I continue to change? Continue to deny myself of who I really am? Or should I let go of the friends I once had & travel the path alone? I didn't know. Moving ever so slowly down the road, I noticed the needle of my speedometer was approaching 80. My friends were nothing but a speck of imagery behind me both physically & mentally. The mist of thought grew more dense & almost provided me with the company I was yearning so much for. The strange silence left me confused, but content as I found salvation within the cradle of my thoughts. No outside force could sway my concentration this night as I drove nowhere in particular, playing possibilities, fantasies, & dreams over & over through my head. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Don't Ask Why" % by tMM I'm not a happy camper, over here in Dallas fucking Texas. I'm confused, frustrated, upset, everything. Nothing. I don't know. I don't want much. Not much at all. I just want to know one simple little thing. WHY? I want to know why I'm so frustrated. Why getting up in the morning is so hard. Why I am losing my best friend, and it is thrown in my face by a stupid & immature little bitch. Why every time that I am around my friends I feel this over-bearing hate for all of them. I want to know why things have become so hard. I want to know how I got so confused. Why things don't work out anymore, why people think elvis is still alive. Why nothing makes sense to me, & if it does, it seems unnecessary. Why I feel like I'm dying on the inside, & why I feel like I never measure up. I want to know why my parents are pushing and shoving at me. Why they think I need that. Why they don't trust me, why I think they should be shot. I want to know where all this confusion came from. Most importantly... I want to know why I cannot find someone to love. Why that soul-mate that I desperately crave has chosen to remain anonymous. Why love is such a far-fetched notion for me right now. Why something so fundamental is being systematically _denied_ to me on a daily basis. I want to know why I can find someone & it seems so right, but it really isn't. I want to know why there is a thing called distance. I want to know why the only thing separating me from what I want is something so stupid as geography. I want to know what the hell is the matter with me. I want to know why all the "good ones" are taken. I want to know why those "takers" are all assholes. Why the good ones allow themselves to be treated like shit, to settle for less than they deserve. I want to know what kind of an evil thing love is that causes people to stay in unhealthy situations. Why those takers always come out on top. I want to know who made that rule. I want to know why I always feel sorry for myself. Why people like me always come out on bottom. I want to know what god is trying to prove. I want to know what kind of god exists that allows this to happen. I want to know where he is right now, & what he is thinking about. I want to know what this is preparing me for, what I am supposed to learn. I want to know why people have to _suffer_ to learn. I want to know what kind of a person I really am. I want to know if this is really me. I want to know why I cannot love. I want to know why geography has it in for me. I want to know why I am writing such a shitty text file. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "I Hate Green Sauce" % by Juke Welcome to corporate America, Juke. You now mass produce tacos, burritos, & three-cheese melts. You never thought it would come to this, but it did! Now you stay up until 2:30 am scrubbing green sauce off of a square pan, just so you can go to college in Chicago. Man, what a loser! Who else but a loser would get to wear a neat little uniform that includes a baseball cap with a bell on it, a name tag, & a shirt that is too small. And without this job, how could you have known that the reason that Taco Bell is called Taco Bell is because some guy had the last name of Bell & that guy with the last name of Bell really liked tacos. How could you have learned that the first Taco Bell was in a suburb of Los Angelos! And how else could you have known that Taco Bell has really been around for over thirty years. Yep, that's right. Thirty years! I should have gotten this job years ago. ----- I see working now as just one of many battles before I get to the sun. I have to prepare before I get there, don't I? Kind of like training for a war. If you don't know how to fight the little fights, you don't have a chance against the sun. If you don't prepare for the battle with the sun, the sun will pierce your skin. Burn you to a crisp, dying slowly. Low moan, high magnitude of pain. I strap on my weapon, my mind, & prepare myself. It will soon be time. ----- There are beans on my boots. My body is completely drenched with water because I have been washing dishes for about the last 7 1/2 hours. I smell like clorox because I have to sanitize the dishes. I'm tired. I now work about 12-14 hours a day. I now get about 4 hours of sleep a night, every night. All of this to move to Chicago. I sometimes question why I'm doing this. Why waste of all this energy, especially on making tacos & cleaning dishes? Then I remember, after I'm done working 14 hours a day, & after I'm done working at Taco Bell, I'll be where I want to be. And when I'm done there, it will all be worth it. ----- Author's Note: If anyone would like to donate to the 'Juke moving to Chicago' fund, it would really be appreciated. HE NEEDS 4 GRAND, ALL IN ONE SUMMER. Mail any sort of contribution to: The Juke Moving to Chicago Fund 1307 Roland Dr. Normal, IL 61761 Now, if anyone does actually send me money, I will be incredibly surprised. It's always worth a try, right? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Abstraction" % by tMM "I'm with you in Rockland where you scream in a straightjacket that you're losing the game of the actual pingpong of the abyss I'm with you in Rockland where we wake up electrified out of the coma by our own souls' airplanes roaring over the roof they've come to drop angelic bombs the hospital illuminates itself imaginary walls collapse O skinny legions run outside O starry spangled shock of mercy the eternal war is here O victory forget your underwear we're free" -- from "Howl" by Allen Ginsberg I was there, Saturday April thirteenth, with Nicolini the Great, while watching the lightning fall. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Benediction" % by Shadow Tao Short lived; the future. Long lived; the past. Dear God in his mercy looked down on us last. I'm screaming at the earth at a million degrees fahrenheit & I think about my family my two sisters.. my brother.. my mother & father my grandparents my cousins aunts & uncles & they don't know. Well. Two of them do. & the rest just smile away. & I just see that pain blasting again & again & again.. & I just see that kid suspended in the air in the most exquisite agony. & I see my hockey stick splinter on his skull & I see my book crunch on his head & I feel crouched down low to the ground & blood drips from my smile & I stare up at the sky & see me falling. My hell is colored with all the rainbow spectrum of scarlet & it frightens me in my dreams & I see little girls impaled on scythe blades & I see hundreds of screaming kids & I fall to my death, or I am shot.. & I look at the sky & see me falling & pray just pray to let me die to stop what I was. To stop what we were. To cry & cry & cry & never ever be able to atone. To look up at the sky & see me falling. To look down at my hands & see them bleeding. To feel inside my heart & know it's dying. To not know who you are. To know who you were. To fear what you'll become. To hold a child in your arms, to feel it's warmth & know that God gave you a gift more precious than the world can pay. To lie beside a woman & hear her heartbeat. To feel her warmth, her soft breath softly sighing, caressing your nose like a gentle touch. To sit in a cafe & stare across two cups at the most beautiful thing ever to grace your life. THERE'S LITTLE NATHAN. SEE THAT, HE ONLY HAS _MOST_ OF HIS TEETH. YES CLASS. Today we're going to make a CROSSBOW. Some say I dwell in my pain too much. That I dwell too much in my own hell & that I should just leave it behind. My hell lives on in me. It _is_ me. It dwells around me in the reflections. I hate myself. I was his dark lord. I was his Satan, his Belial, his Vlaad Tepes. I was the dark grinning faceless wall of torture. I was her tormenter. I was his rabid dog, snarling & snapping at everyone brave enough to jump near. ----- One time, I was at the basketball courts, & one of the bigger 8th graders decided it was time to teach Skippy Marvin a lesson. Taking him by the shoulders, he casually rammed a good 2 feet of leg into Skippy's crotch. Skippy started screaming, & it just got higher & higher until his nose bled. At which, he just rolled around on the ground until we thought he died. Then we went on with 3 on 3. You just haven't seen anything till you've seen a 13 year old kid bleed from his penis, let me tell you. ----- My pain faces me every morning. My pain caresses me at night. & damn you if you try to forgive me. I'm not worth it. I'm not worth the time or words the thought or speech. My redemption is the fact that I'll never ever do that to a child again. I'll never be an animal again. No I won't. I can't. But it's still there what do I do? It's still there. I'm 19, 6'6", 330lbs, extremely protective, & if you ever think about even saying something that dumb again, I'll mangle you into A FUCKING CHEEZE DOODLE. I won't pretend I'm some badass motherfucker streetfighter. I'm as far from that as you can get. But when you stare into the darkness of your heart, & you see the blackest thoughts there, & you scare yourself.. I'm there. I was that. I still am. ----- I remember one time, Dan Ballenger, (who was 16 or 17 in 7th or 8th grade) picked up his desk & threw it against the wall. The teacher we had at the time was a small effeminate man. Dan started screaming & swearing & punching & yelling. We just sat there. Needless to say, Mr. Knox wasn't long for the teaching world. He got into an insurance firm that next semester. Yeah. That was pretty par for the course. ----- Don't speak to me angelically of my demons and my fears. Don't compare me to the rose with my darkness and my tears. Just look to my broken innocence & stare away in pain. Look at the work that evil wrought a childhood crushed in vain. Don't try to say that it is past don't make me live that way. Don't hear my wail & cry to you & think it's not today. Just look down at the broken flower, on what was whole & sound, stare down from where e're you stand today at what once was holy ground. Look down, look down upon us, or you will never see. Look down upon that cripple boy that cripple boy is me. Look down upon the weak & poor don't shift your eyes around. Don't fill your heart with charity at the pain you see abound. We are the wretched and the sick the ones you hide in shame. We dove upon our brethren weak to protect our forsaken name. WE _ARE_ the HORRIBLE BEASTS OF BLACK WE _ARE_ your darkest fear WE _ARE_ your evil thoughts at night WE _ARE_ the cries you hear WE'RE EVERY-FUCKING-WHERE YOU GO WE'RE EVERY FUCKING THOUGHT WE'LL CRY AT YOU FOR ONE MORE CHANCE Whether or not you ought. Reach down to us in mercy whole as our prey seized up and cried, give us the love we couldn't give & God so righteously denied. Don't try to say that it is past Don't make me live that way Don't hear my wail & cry to you and think it's not today. Just look down at the broken flower, on what was whole and sigh, stare down from where e're you stand today look down at me & cry. Benediction I am the scream, both dark & bright, I am the sun & the blackest night, I am the shadow, the blinding light, I am the sin & the purest white. I am your joy & yet your strife. I am your death. I am your life. Alpha, Omega, I am your soul. The two made one, the one made whole. I am the Shadow Tao. *** tMM's Note: & let that be recorded in the high heavens. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- % "Closing" % by tMM Well, that about does it. I won't bore you with needless rhetoric, I'll just let it be over. Oh wait! I almost forgot!@ Stay tuned for some really neat-o stuff from Kojak & I. Ok, that's it. 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