The Day I Scared Someone Written by: Janie **I haven't been on AIM for a while and to my surprise no one that I regularly talked with was online so to past the time I did a "buddy search" on AIM. Luckily I found someone in the category "Family Issues" ** janie jew (4:30:55 PM): hi Quanto inferno (4:30:58 PM): hi janie jew (4:31:15 PM): how are you? Quanto inferno (4:31:32 PM): im am quite fine and yourself janie jew (4:31:52 PM): you really want to know? Quanto inferno (4:32:00 PM): surely Quanto inferno (4:32:06 PM): i woudlnt have asked if i didnt want to kno janie jew (4:32:15 PM): i want to kill myself janie jew (4:32:25 PM): i dont have any reasons to live anymore Quanto inferno (4:32:32 PM): not even one. janie jew (4:32:32 PM): i just smoked like an ounce of crack janie jew (4:32:37 PM): i feel Quanto inferno (4:32:38 PM): shit janie jew (4:32:39 PM): so Quanto inferno (4:32:42 PM): numb? janie jew (4:32:46 PM): yeah janie jew (4:32:51 PM): i want to just end it all Quanto inferno (4:33:00 PM): yeah i kno that feeling Quanto inferno (4:33:04 PM): but dont do it janie jew (4:33:04 PM): i want the pain to stop janie jew (4:33:44 PM): hello? janie jew (4:33:45 PM): hello? **I don't think that she believed me at first but...** Quanto inferno (4:33:50 PM): yeah Quanto inferno (4:33:52 PM): im here Quanto inferno (4:33:53 PM): sheesh Quanto inferno (4:34:00 PM): go get hel Quanto inferno (4:34:18 PM): help* janie jew (4:34:23 PM): no one wants to help me Quanto inferno (4:34:33 PM): whos no one? Quanto inferno (4:34:36 PM): not your mom or dad Quanto inferno (4:34:42 PM): what about a shrink Quanto inferno (4:34:46 PM): or a hospital janie jew (4:35:31 PM): well the thing is that ive been into three asylums janie jew (4:35:34 PM): and no one can help Quanto inferno (4:35:51 PM): shit janie jew (4:35:51 PM): because my mom was on crack and my dad was abusive Quanto inferno (4:35:54 PM): three Quanto inferno (4:35:59 PM): ohh Quanto inferno (4:36:07 PM): so if your mom was on crack and she was like that Quanto inferno (4:36:10 PM): why are you doing it to Quanto inferno (4:36:15 PM): do you want to be like her janie jew (4:38:01 PM): i cant help it janie jew (4:38:03 PM): i want to stop Quanto inferno (4:38:23 PM): well Quanto inferno (4:38:28 PM): dont kill yourself Quanto inferno (4:38:33 PM): its not the way out of your problems janie jew (4:38:57 PM): it feels like the only way Quanto inferno (4:39:10 PM): well theres awlays more than one way out **I think that I was getting a tad bit carried away...** janie jew (4:39:11 PM): i have a tank of gasoline and a lighter janie jew (4:39:16 PM): im the only one home Quanto inferno (4:39:17 PM): and killing your self isnt that anser Quanto inferno (4:39:21 PM): noo dont burn Quanto inferno (4:39:23 PM): no Quanto inferno (4:39:28 PM): burning is the worst way to die Quanto inferno (4:41:04 PM): call a friend janie jew (4:41:19 PM): i have no friends anymore Quanto inferno (4:41:26 PM): grandmas? janie jew (4:41:38 PM): my grandma died Quanto inferno (4:41:44 PM): all of them Quanto inferno (4:41:46 PM): anuts uncles janie jew (4:41:47 PM): everyone that has meant something to me has died Quanto inferno (4:41:47 PM): anyone janie jew (4:41:52 PM): no one janie jew (4:41:55 PM): i feel alone Quanto inferno (4:41:57 PM): call Quanto inferno (4:42:02 PM): a hotline or something janie jew (4:42:03 PM): can i call you? Quanto inferno (4:42:07 PM): not me janie jew (4:42:11 PM): why not? janie jew (4:42:14 PM): i thought we were friends? Quanto inferno (4:42:15 PM): i cant help you i dont kno anything about this Quanto inferno (4:42:25 PM): sure we are but i dont kno you and i cant do anythign for you Quanto inferno (4:42:30 PM): you need to call someone who can help you janie jew (4:43:32 PM): please janie jew (4:43:35 PM): i am going to do it Quanto inferno (4:43:41 PM): no your not Quanto inferno (4:43:44 PM): dont do it Quanto inferno (4:43:48 PM): its not the way out Quanto inferno (4:44:14 PM): my friend is gonna talk to you and see if she can helpyou janie jew (4:44:54 PM): man janie jew (4:45:05 PM): i dont want everyone knowing about my problems janie jew (4:45:08 PM): thats why i cam to you Quanto inferno (4:45:13 PM): you dont kno me tho janie jew (4:45:22 PM): but i know you can help me janie jew (4:45:24 PM): i will do it janie jew (4:45:26 PM): i will janie jew (4:45:27 PM): i will Quanto inferno (4:45:32 PM): how do you kno i can hell you Quanto inferno (4:45:34 PM): help* Quanto inferno (4:45:52 PM): talk to my friend she knows more about this stuff **So her friend Void of Pitty IM's me trying to help** Quanto inferno (4:45:55 PM): i dont kno anything about this Quanto inferno (4:45:58 PM): i am to young janie jew (4:46:16 PM): i am young too janie jew (4:46:23 PM): i am 12 Quanto inferno (4:46:38 PM): what Quanto inferno (4:46:40 PM): your 12 janie jew (4:46:55 PM): yes Quanto inferno (4:46:59 PM): i dont belive you janie jew (4:47:04 PM): FUCK janie jew (4:47:06 PM): no one beleives me janie jew (4:47:08 PM): no one janie jew (4:47:09 PM): no one Quanto inferno (4:47:12 PM): your info is to soficated for 12 janie jew (4:47:12 PM): why me?! Quanto inferno (4:47:18 PM): look Quanto inferno (4:47:24 PM): if you are 12 Quanto inferno (4:47:29 PM): look at all you have ahead of you Quanto inferno (4:47:35 PM): a lfie a husband kids Quanto inferno (4:47:37 PM): a job Quanto inferno (4:47:41 PM): a family Quanto inferno (4:47:50 PM): everything to live for Quanto inferno (4:47:58 PM): killing yourself wont help anything Quanto inferno (4:48:47 PM): youve been in three asylums by 12.. janie jew (4:48:49 PM): no one janie jew (4:48:50 PM): why?!? Quanto inferno (4:48:55 PM): why janie jew (4:48:57 PM): okay i will do it Quanto inferno (4:49:00 PM): b.c you have a future janie jew (4:49:03 PM): i wish you could have helped me Quanto inferno (4:49:10 PM): i am trying Quanto inferno (4:49:11 PM): you wont let me janie jew (4:49:23 PM): can i talk to you on the telepohne'? Quanto inferno (4:49:31 PM): not on the phone janie jew (4:49:37 PM): why? Quanto inferno (4:49:42 PM): look im new to this to..i dont kno what this is like Quanto inferno (4:49:54 PM): if some random person who is threating to kill her self asked to call you Quanto inferno (4:49:56 PM): would you let her janie jew (4:50:02 PM): yes janie jew (4:50:10 PM): i need help Quanto inferno (4:50:14 PM): but i cant help Quanto inferno (4:50:24 PM): call 1-800 charter or soemthign janie jew (4:50:50 PM): no one will help Quanto inferno (4:50:59 PM): maybe they can? janie jew (4:51:01 PM): please? Quanto inferno (4:51:03 PM): i dont kno what to tell you Quanto inferno (4:51:06 PM): no Quanto inferno (4:51:20 PM): who are you Quanto inferno (4:53:42 PM): hello? janie jew (4:53:43 PM): i am a person in need of help Quanto inferno (4:53:49 PM): yes you are janie jew (4:53:55 PM): i thought you would help janie jew (4:53:57 PM): i guess not Quanto inferno (4:53:59 PM): so call someone who is trained to help Quanto inferno (4:54:07 PM): your not going to make me feel guilty Quanto inferno (4:54:12 PM): i dont even kno you Quanto inferno (4:54:15 PM): and i dont belive you either janie jew (4:55:00 PM): oh my god janie jew (4:55:04 PM): it wont stop bleeding janie jew (4:55:43 PM): bloodd is aonll the keynboard Quanto inferno (4:56:58 PM): what did you do? janie jew (4:57:13 PM): i slit my wristtt janie jew (4:57:17 PM): i feel weak Quanto inferno (4:57:40 PM): where did you slit it janie jew (4:57:49 PM): wrist Quanto inferno (4:58:01 PM): urg janie jew (4:58:03 PM): it wont stop Quanto inferno (4:58:04 PM): what for janie jew (4:58:05 PM): i want it to stop Quanto inferno (4:58:12 PM): ithougth you wanted to die. Quanto inferno (4:58:33 PM): ok. here **Doctor 1-01** Quanto inferno (4:58:43 PM): apply pressue to the cut and wrap it up Quanto inferno (4:58:53 PM): and then hold your arm above your head janie jew (4:58:54 PM): i keep cuting myself janie jew (4:58:56 PM): i dont know why janie jew (4:59:00 PM): im scared janie jew (4:59:02 PM): im scared Quanto inferno (4:59:03 PM): it will keep it from bleeding to much Quanto inferno (4:59:06 PM): well stop janie jew (4:59:09 PM): i cant stopa Quanto inferno (4:59:12 PM): what are you using Quanto inferno (4:59:13 PM): yes you can Quanto inferno (4:59:50 PM): stop it janie jew (5:00:28 PM): i am using a steak knive Quanto inferno (5:00:35 PM): ah damnit Quanto inferno (5:00:38 PM): throw it away Quanto inferno (5:00:41 PM): throw it on the ground janie jew (5:00:48 PM): the deamons wont let me Quanto inferno (5:00:58 PM): what the hell Quanto inferno (5:01:05 PM): ok this is getting way to fake for me Quanto inferno (5:01:11 PM): there are no deamons Quanto inferno (5:01:13 PM): your high janie jew (5:01:24 PM): it is drugs janie jew (5:01:26 PM): i swear janie jew (5:01:27 PM): durgs janie jew (5:01:30 PM): i need more janie jew (5:01:32 PM): or i will janie jew (5:01:34 PM): i iwll janie jew (5:01:34 PM): die Quanto inferno (5:01:56 PM): you dont need more Quanto inferno (5:01:58 PM): you need to stop janie jew (5:02:01 PM): no janie jew (5:02:02 PM): inpo Quanto inferno (5:02:08 PM): inpo. Quanto inferno (5:02:09 PM): ? Quanto inferno (5:02:33 PM): who the hell are you Quanto inferno (5:02:37 PM): and where did you get my sn janie jew (5:02:40 PM): i am person who need help Quanto inferno (5:02:44 PM): tell me now or i will block you Quanto inferno (5:02:47 PM): you are full of shit janie jew (5:02:52 PM): no one will believe me janie jew (5:02:53 PM): why? Quanto inferno (5:03:03 PM): b.c i kno your not woh you say youa re janie jew (5:03:16 PM): i got it from caitlin **I got the name Caitlin from her Buddy Info I had like no idea who Caitlin was... but that was the only name that came to mind...** Quanto inferno (5:03:26 PM): haa Quanto inferno (5:03:27 PM): yeah janie jew (5:03:34 PM): i did Quanto inferno (5:03:34 PM): what the hell aldfja Quanto inferno (5:03:37 PM): riight Quanto inferno (5:04:02 PM): so now who is this. Quanto inferno (5:04:04 PM): caitlin? Quanto inferno (5:04:05 PM): claire Quanto inferno (5:04:49 PM): hhaha i cant belive i fell for you shit Quanto inferno (5:05:08 PM): i shouldve known it was so corny..janie jew cant you come up with something better janie jew (5:05:21 PM): uhm janie jew (5:05:23 PM): this is vern Quanto inferno (5:05:27 PM): vern. Quanto inferno (5:05:28 PM): riight Quanto inferno (5:05:31 PM): i dont belive you Quanto inferno (5:05:41 PM): then what did you get from caitlin janie jew (5:05:43 PM): will you still help me? Quanto inferno (5:05:48 PM): you dont need help Quanto inferno (5:05:52 PM): your faking it Quanto inferno (5:05:54 PM): now who is this janie jew (5:06:05 PM): this is vern janie jew (5:06:08 PM): i am 12 from usa Quanto inferno (5:06:08 PM): no its not Quanto inferno (5:06:15 PM): hahaha Quanto inferno (5:06:18 PM): i dont belvee you janie jew (5:06:21 PM): i am bleed janie jew (5:06:25 PM): i cut my finger off Quanto inferno (5:06:29 PM): hahaha Quanto inferno (5:06:31 PM): hahaha Quanto inferno (5:06:36 PM): you cut off your finger janie jew (5:06:38 PM): hyes Quanto inferno (5:06:39 PM): poor you janie jew (5:06:40 PM): it hurts janie jew (5:06:42 PM): help me janie jew (5:06:45 PM): can i call you? janie jew (5:06:46 PM): please Quanto inferno (5:06:48 PM): help yourself janie jew (5:06:50 PM): you will help Quanto inferno (5:06:53 PM): no you cant Quanto inferno (5:06:58 PM): no i wont Quanto inferno (5:07:02 PM): bc your not going to call **She now thinks that she's got everything figured out and that I'm her friend Caitlin** Quanto inferno (5:07:09 PM): caitlin this is fucking low i cant belive you janie jew (5:07:21 PM): who? janie jew (5:07:27 PM): i got your sn from that girl janie jew (5:07:33 PM): i msg her wanting help janie jew (5:07:41 PM): she msg me tell to talk to you Quanto inferno (5:08:02 PM): oh really Quanto inferno (5:08:07 PM): what was her sn then Quanto inferno (5:08:36 PM): yeah thats what i thought janie jew (5:09:06 PM): i found it in the commuinities Quanto inferno (5:09:14 PM): what was it likethen Quanto inferno (5:09:29 PM): and if it was caitlin then she would have been on my list janie jew (5:09:32 PM): i dont remember i was smoking when i talked to her Quanto inferno (5:09:35 PM): so stop with the fuckng lying Quanto inferno (5:09:39 PM): oh really now janie jew (5:10:02 PM): yes Quanto inferno (5:10:06 PM): god i cant belive you Quanto inferno (5:10:09 PM): this is so low Quanto inferno (5:10:17 PM): i will never forgive you for this Quanto inferno (5:10:22 PM): Never. **I feel sorry for Caitlin when/if they ever speak again** janie jew (5:10:27 PM): okay i will do it then i poured all of the gasoline in my moms room Quanto inferno (5:10:41 PM): oh right Quanto inferno (5:10:46 PM): caitlin stop it Quanto inferno (5:10:49 PM): this is so fucking lame janie jew (5:10:51 PM): i will never janie jew (5:10:55 PM): never forget you janie jew (5:11:01 PM): you did not help you just discouraged me janie jew (5:11:04 PM): everything about me Quanto inferno (5:11:16 PM): ok if you were real i wouldve helped you Quanto inferno (5:11:21 PM): but since i kno your not Quanto inferno (5:11:37 PM): its not going to bother me Quanto inferno (5:11:52 PM): so who is this now Quanto inferno (5:15:55 PM): ok then dont talk Quanto inferno (5:17:13 PM): you can call me ***- ***-**** Quanto inferno (5:17:34 PM): hello? **After a while things got boring but she did give in and send me her phone number =D **